Hi there, Not scaring me a bit yet but highlighting things I had better get my head round as what to possibly expect when my turn comes. I am sure no matter how much we all want this op and need it, that is a natural feeling to have. We have the focus on the op and finally having a chance to be slim and forget the immediate post op blues we would have with any op let alone this one. I must admit to similar feelings whan I had a total hysterectomy at 37yrs old due to severe and uncontrolled PMT, suddenly gone was the chance to have a little girl (having already been blessed with my 3 boys after infertility problems) even though we were sure we had finished with babies really, no longer having that option was a sudden realisation no matter how much it had been discussed before that op to.
We will all have a lot to get our heads and emotions around once the focus on the fight for the op is no longer there, it's done and we have to refocus on the next stage.
Best wishes to you and heres hoping you have no more nasty shocks with reactons to things. Take care rest, recuperate and recover well so you can get on with learning to live with your pouch.