Penelope
Well-Known Member
It sucks doesn't it. Jumping through hoops just because you have been told you must. I am sorry. I also felt so low at times, and at other times I felt I was wasting my time and that I would never get there. But I did and now I am on the other side.Hi all well I got a call from the nurse from the MDT team. They told me Friday they want me to do milk diet for a month then a month on low cal diet n would see the surgeon in March.
Well she called me to say because I gained the MDT team WON'T be referring me to the surgeon till iv done two months of this diet then see if I keep it off therefore no surgeon in march so won't see him till at least middle\end of June I'm literally beside myself with utter disappointment iv done everything asked but gained over Xmas. I'm going out of my mind its taken them 16 months to pass me from pilla to post n lose me for 3 month and now stop everything till I lose more weight. If I was frustrated before I'm literally at my lowest point now I don't know what to do.
The only thing that worked for me was to allow myself the time to feel the feelings, - the frustration, the anger and the disappointment. Acknowledging my pain was important to me, I needed to rage and shout at all the unfairness of it all.
But then I had to get up again, when I could - next day usually, and start all over again. In some ways the anger made me even more determined.
I don't know if my way is the best way for you, but at least I hope that sharing will make you feel less alone.
Hugs and good luck on the next stage of your journey.