So I didn't weigh in officially last week, the week on milk and water was hard. When I could finally get onto bland mash it soon became apparent that the defill was just as if I'd never had anything put in there at all.
I have to say over the past couple of weeks, I've felt quite deflated. Getting to 11mls and having no restriction, but then having 1ml and it taking me to such a point of over restriction that in the last few days I couldn't even swallow my own saliva was hard. Then having a defill taking me back to 10mls felt like a huge set back.
On the week of milk and water I lost 4lbs. When I went onto mash I put those 4lbs back on. When I stepped on the scales on monday which was just approaching the time I could get onto "normal" foods while I was relieved I was still in the 13 stones, I was gutted that the weight I'd lost, had once again gone on.
So, I was back to where I was a few weeks ago, and indeed a few weeks before that. It can be quite deflating going up and down the same few lbs.
But I called my provider this week and managed to get a cancellation appointment for a follow up, which I went to yesterday. I was relieved that the lady I saw fully understood and she gave me a 1ml fill. So, I am back up to 11mls and now back on liquid.
I had no restriction at 11mls before and she said about going back before Xmas to get another small amount put in. I'm hesitant as they don't do fills after mid December due to the Xmas holidays and to avoid people being over restricted and as that was an issue I've just sorted out I am thinking that I shall wait until January. So I am booked in for a fill on the new saturday afternoon slot I think its about the 11th January.
On my monday weigh in this week I weighed in at 13 13, but got seriously back on track, really tracking food but following a similar way to tracking as weightwatchers points. I thought it was worth trying something different than the calorie/carb/protein counting for a while to shake the body up.
And shake it up it has. Between Monday morning and thursday morning I've lost the 4lbs. So I am back to where I was when I weighed in 2 weeks ago. And now I've had my fill and liquids and mash usually slow down my weight loss, but at least I'm back to where I was.
So although I've had a 4lb loss between Monday and Thursday, I've got no loss to record as I'm back to where I actually was 2 weeks ago.
I don't feel any different from this fill however, after the one that took me to over restricted I felt a difference straight away, obviously one that was too much. But this time, its just as before and there's no difference.
Will be interesting to see what its like when I get onto normal foods, but I'm hoping the tracking that I am now doing on its own may help with continued weight loss as I'm slowly losing the restriction battle because I went from none, to over restricted and I wonder if there will ever be a happy medium.
So mixed feelings. But still despite this, I LOVE my band and the control its given me with my eating.