my hospital experience

[Tonibones10]

Well he's going to be taken for the mug he is too by these women just like the other 2 with there addictions, you deserve a prince charming for the things you have had to put up with honey, now its your turn to do what you want for you instead of everyone else, just make you happy honey, I admire you and look upto so much for going through all this and trying to stay strong, all this + the op, wow what a lady you are Xx

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[VikiB]

Everyone (EVERYONE) says I am so strong...I sure wish I felt as strong as everyone seems to think I am lol

 

[PurpleKylie22]

Well if hes the kind of guy who will never give his heart away to anyone enough to get hurt, then lots hope he gets a nasty STD and his **** falls off!

 

[Tonibones10]

Well if hes the kind of guy who will never give his heart away to anyone enough to get hurt, then lots hope he gets a nasty STD and his **** falls off!

Haha well said! Xx

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[VikiB]

LOL you have no idea how many times I've wished that on him. I think if someone new comes along he will have a he** of a time getting over my walls and I doubt I will ever give my heart away again. Love hurts too much...it has destroyed me.

 

[PurpleKylie22]

LOL you have no idea how many times I've wished that on him. I think if someone new comes along he will have a he** of a time getting over my walls and I doubt I will ever give my heart away again. Love hurts too much...it has destroyed me.

Love has too hurt hun. It wouldn't be love if it didn't

 

[Snow White]

It's hard not to get jaded by a bad relationship. I like the penis falling off idea!!! Lol

 

[pandora]

I understand how you feel. I havnt been through half what you have , but I don't know that I can be bothered with men any more either . Stay strong hunni xx

 

[VikiB]

I've had an idea of how to warn the other girls of who he is. Our 11th anniversary is in a couple of weeks and his girlfriends are all on his facebook...thinking I will post a love ladened anniversary message on his wall. That should give them all a heads up and he won't be able to say anything about my post without outing himself lol. He** hath no fury like a woman scorned. lol I know it's childish but I will probably do it anyway. I really wish the council would get on with sending me my bidding code or something...I feel like a bit more of me dies everyday.
I suppose I should probably stop moaning about my love life on here...it's getting old for me even.

On the wls front...have been drinking more and eating a bit more for the last few days. Have now found my calcium chew and anything else even slightly sweet (protein bars, porriage, yogurt etc) makes me extremely nauseous. Definitely have a sugar intolerance now. I'm not complaining it's just a new developement. Even the word soup makes me feel sick lol (must be from 4 weeks of soup three times a day lol). Mind you with all the eggs and porriage I have eaten for the last 4 weeks on the pureed part of this has probably contributed to the new sugar intolerance and loathing of eggs as well lol. I wonder if these things will remain things I hate (have I conditioned myself into not ever wanting them again??) or will time make them tolerable again? I don't know. I'm still not eating as much as I should I'm sure of it. I just can't seem to force myself to do more than a tea or coffee for breakfast and lunch is usually a tiny bit of cheese and for evening tea I try to eat something but pureed things make me feel ill looking at them so it's been mostly pate or eggs...I know it will get better. I can't wait until Thursday when I can have normal food but at the same time I am worried that everything I try then will make me sick as well and I will just be more and more put off by food.
I see the things that people list they have eaten on the bariatric porn page and I think omg I would explode if I ate that much food...is there something wrong with me or is this normal in the beginning?
Anyhow I'm out to get something for tea tonight (wish me luck...might just be pate again )
Have a great day
lots of love my darlins

 

[pandora]

Wish I had some words of wisdom , but being pre op I have no idea how you feel . Just try to keep what you do eat / drinks as nutritious as possible .
Hugs hunni xx

 

[lisa1539]

I've had an idea of how to warn the other girls of who he is. Our 11th anniversary is in a couple of weeks and his girlfriends are all on his facebook...thinking I will post a love ladened anniversary message on his wall. That should give them all a heads up and he won't be able to say anything about my post without outing himself lol. He** hath no fury like a woman scorned. lol I know it's childish but I will probably do it anyway. I really wish the council would get on with sending me my bidding code or something...I feel like a bit more of me dies everyday.
I suppose I should probably stop moaning about my love life on here...it's getting old for me even.

On the wls front...have been drinking more and eating a bit more for the last few days. Have now found my calcium chew and anything else even slightly sweet (protein bars, porriage, yogurt etc) makes me extremely nauseous. Definitely have a sugar intolerance now. I'm not complaining it's just a new developement. Even the word soup makes me feel sick lol (must be from 4 weeks of soup three times a day lol). Mind you with all the eggs and porriage I have eaten for the last 4 weeks on the pureed part of this has probably contributed to the new sugar intolerance and loathing of eggs as well lol. I wonder if these things will remain things I hate (have I conditioned myself into not ever wanting them again??) or will time make them tolerable again? I don't know. I'm still not eating as much as I should I'm sure of it. I just can't seem to force myself to do more than a tea or coffee for breakfast and lunch is usually a tiny bit of cheese and for evening tea I try to eat something but pureed things make me feel ill looking at them so it's been mostly pate or eggs...I know it will get better. I can't wait until Thursday when I can have normal food but at the same time I am worried that everything I try then will make me sick as well and I will just be more and more put off by food.
I see the things that people list they have eaten on the bariatric porn page and I think omg I would explode if I ate that much food...is there something wrong with me or is this normal in the beginning?
Anyhow I'm out to get something for tea tonight (wish me luck...might just be pate again )
Have a great day
lots of love my darlins

hi petal, i really hope all works out for you, i found out my hubby of 15 years had been cheating on me before christmas. Onwards and upwards for us both petal, you have had your op and im hopefully having mine soon, and those men of ours will be pig sick when we are 2 fit birds. Start of a new life, do things you enjoy doing and make a new and exciting life for yourself with your new body xxxx

 

[VikiB]

Is it just me or does it seem like alot of us have had or are having men troubles?? It's weird we have so many things in common. It really is a small world.
I wondered around the entire store today and guess what I bought for my tea?? Yep pate but I also found sweet chili philadelphia light which is yummy Ohh oh oh oh this is going to sounds stupid but guess what I discovered I have today....two things a belly button and feet...I can see my feet when standing now WOOHOO!!! LOL sorry I guess that probably sounds like my cheese has slipped off my cracker but I was well chuffed

 

[Tonibones10]

Every little thing that makes you smile and realise what you have done is doing good is brilliant I'm so proud of you and pleased for you! And yes a lot (not all) of men are jerks at the mo! Xx

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[VikiB]

Slept in today wow...first time since op I have slept past 9. Mind you I did wake up at 7 but decided it was too early to get up and went back to sleep lol. Todays goals are to drink lots of fluids and get three meals in and to clean rat cage, fish tanks and cat tray...have to pull myself up off my face and get on with living now!! If I spend the rest of my life grieving for something I can not fix the only one I can blame is me. So going to get my head right and start putting my book together (my dream of being a writer will only stay a dream if I don't pursue it). By the way I'm thinking of going back to my mental health writing class (it's a place I was sent after my suicide attempt to help me cope) that class always made me feel like I mattered. Also thanks to Toni I am going to drag out and dust off my art box and maybe do some of the illistrations for my book...have to get some birds, cats, bugs and people drawn Thank you Toni...love you girl. I think I have to get some more titanium white and burnt umber oils but thats ok I can get them this weekend Anyhow going to go do my stupid facebook game then get on with my day. Have a spectacular day and please smile you never know who it might touch
lots of love always my dear friends and thanks for always listening even when I am just moaning about my world.
XXXXXXXXXXX

 

[PurpleKylie22]

Which FB game do you play hun? I always do the Sims Social I love it haha

Hope you enjoy your day. Just as a word of warning, if you can get a paper mask or something for when you are changing cat litter it might be worth while. Cat litter in particulare has a nasty virus in it (you shouldn't change cat litter when you are pregnant) at the minute I imagine your immune system isn't up to much, so its worth considering just to be safe I used to have rats when I was little. We also had a snake so when the rats had babies we fed the snake the pinkies. I'm actually alergic to mice / rats and birds now, something to do with the dust from their fur/feathers, but i used to love them I just never liked the ones with red eyes, they kinda scare me....

Enjoy your painting. The writing class sounds like a great idea

 

[VikiB]

I play castleville lol its really lame but I enjoy it at the moment so...
I actually asked for a mouse and I got two rats. Both of them have red eyes and neither can see very well at all one is nearly blind (it's because their eyes are red).
I do have a mask for doing the tray. I'm not pregnant (thank christ lol) but always wear a mask anyway Of all the pets in this house (ie 2 rats, 2 fish aquariums, a dog, 4 cats and a rabbit (daughters)) I actually adore one of the cats. Rocky is my favourite
I am going to enjoy my painting...I have been procrastinating about it long enough. It's time to get back up out of the dirt, dust myself off, grow a set and get on with it!! lol My book has been laying around in sections for years (been writing it since my youngest daughter was born...she's 21 in August ) and there was always something/one else more important so it just kept getting put away for "another time" well the time has come to get it together. It's all there just needs to be connected and illistrations and it's done and ready to be sent to a publisher. Even have the second and third and possibly fourth books almost written.
Sigh why have I allowed myself to be made insignificant all these years?

 

[Ruthiep]

I'm a published author of 8 novels. What kind of book are you writing Vicki?

 

[VikiB]

Its a kids book. I started writing it when my youngest was born. Its mostly about her life only she's a bird in it.

 

[Ruthiep]

So nice! Get a literary agent; it will help you get it published. Publishers rarely accept unsolicited manuscripts.

 

[VikiB]

Love the new pic Ruthie How do I get an agent then??