I can't really say I've been doing so well with the eating thing...I managed to keep down one snack the whole day though all the alcohol stayed sigh. I think I have to stop punishing myself and as my daughter says torturing myself with the hope that things will change and I'll miraclessly (wow thats spelled wrong sorry) get my old life back...she's right of course. I need a new life and need to leave my old one where it is...in the past. anyway if you're going to yell at me about drinking at this stage please yell quietly my head hurts lol
He of course is still being a pig but I wasn't really expecting that to change. There is still no word from housing I'm looking forward to Saturday...going out with friends for my birthday celebration (it's not my birthday but since my birthday is on Easter sunday thought doing it early would be a good idea to avoid the chaos of the holiday). I just need to go out really badly and can't wait to go out with my friends and just have a natter Though finding something WOW to wear is proving to be a task lol...I have lots more choice now and just can't decide. Anyhow hope you are all well and enjoying the sun we've been getting
It looks fabulous. I also bought the very first pair of heels ever(2 inch heeled boots) but they hurt my feet a bit so will not be wearing the tomorrow as I don't want to spend my time worrying about how much my feet ache but will be wearing them a bit everyday until they are broke in and I'm used to them. I tried pork scratchings today for a protien burst when I started feeling blah because I forgot to eat all day (that still mystifies me that I could just forget to eat) but Oscar (yes as in the grouch lol...it's my pouch's name) did NOT like them at all so off the list. I spent the rest of the day feeling queasy and dizzy and tired and after a two hour nap just drank a protein drink which made Oscar much happier Yep still learning. I know tomorrow will be a nice day as I am leaving here at 9:30 to meet up with a friend to do some shopping (need a new bag (my obsession) and a pair of flat shoes lol) and then going to lunch and then more shopping (don't know what for yet but will find something I have no doubts) and then we meet with my other 8 or 9 or 10 friends for a spectacular evening I am so looking forward to seeing everyone for a laugh a chat and good company that will not make me feel anything but love respect and happiness I don't know if I would say I am happy but I'm doing my best to try to be as being sad is too much of a downer. There are things I need and want to do and if I keep up all this drowning in self-pity I'm going to miss all the good stuff. So I am working on it and hopefully stepping forward now
I was out all day and got in around 10ish totally shattered and fell asleep not long after going to bed I got some me to you bear things (I'm in love with Tatty bear lol) and a new bag (I love love love). I am not allowed to have any of my other prezzies until my actual birthday though lol. My favorite little man (I've mentioned in earlier posts) made me a beautiful butterfly card which I intend to keep forever and told me I am the most loveliest woman he knows and he loves me to the moon and back a zillion billion times He sat beside me and we had a lovely talk about his life and then he invited me to his next week so he can make me a healthy pizza and we can have a proper catch up where it's more quiet...I love little man so much My bestie has invited me to get the train and come spend the day with her in Camber Sands next week as well...I haven't decided whether to go or not but seriously concidering it I didn't take any pictures lol we were having so much fun and laughing so much it completely slipped my mind...sorry. This week I will have to spend some time out as my daughter has gone away to see her boyfriend and is going to be gone until Thursday and we are very close and hardly ever spend time away from each other. I will miss her badly. Tomorrow is my next follow up appointment and I hope it goes well. I might go get Easter eggs tomorrow after my appointment...no it won't tempt me. I'm really not bothered by any of that anymore My daughter already pointed out the one she would like to have and then said I didn't have to get her one as she is a grown up now (she's 21). Yeah right as if I care how old my baby is lol. I guess by now I'm starting to bore you so I'll shut up now and go.
