Hi everyone and thank you so much for all your kind words and thoughts. I really do appreciate them all.
I came home on Friday afternoon and although I was in an incredible amount of pain, I was tolerating soup and yogurt and able to sip water which were all brilliant signs at such an early stage.
I have been shocked at how utterly exhausted I am, I did not feel like this after my Sleeve surgery; I felt tired and did not suffer with much pain. This is astounding!
If I am totally honest, I have avoided posting an update because I am not in my right mind. I feel terribly emotional and know that my body is going through a lot, causing my judgement to cloud. I didn't want to come across as negative or ungrateful. I am thrilled to be given a second chance and be alive but I am dealing with an outside interference, if that makes sense?
I know that this will pass though, I am reminding myself of that constantly and meditating to help me ride the various waves of emotion I feel. There are so many sensations that my body feels also; a bubble or a pop here, a bout of pain or bloating after you sip. I am constantly on the look our for anything untoward.
In terms of eating, well today has been hard. I am so very full all the time that its hard to get in any calorie dense fluids. A couple of sips and I am full for hours and I can feel it backing up into my oesophogus. I am not being sick at all though which I suppose is still a step in the right direction.
The pain is easing and I am trying to move around as much as possible. I will be fine, I know it and time marches in on as well all know.