NOMOREyoyo
will YOYO no more!!
Toni
Well done on being so brave and getting it written down, like others have said its incredibly theraputic finally getting it out!
As you have said this is YOUR YEAR, you are obviously a born survivor.
I look forward to watching you on your journey.
Clare xxx
Well done on being so brave and getting it written down, like others have said its incredibly theraputic finally getting it out!
As you have said this is YOUR YEAR, you are obviously a born survivor.
I look forward to watching you on your journey.
Clare xxx
then a few weeks later i met my first bf which sent my confidence sky high but he was older than me, then about 6 months after meeting him i was raped which killed me and made me feel like id cheated on him so i broke it off just saying it was because of age... a couple of very sad years went by then to make it worse i was raped again, by then i was doing anything that was bad for me because i couldnt be bothered anymore i was smoking drinking taking drugs cutting myself etc etc etc none of my family or friends knew/know about half of this, for 2 years i was doing this through college then when i met ian (my husband) and had my son i became even more depressed (post natal deppression) and finally after so many years of basically trying to kill my self with anything i could find my sister dragged me to the docs and i was put on anti depressants which just sent me to sleep when i took them so got them changed took them for 2 years and couldnt stand the numbness anymore and by this time i was over 22 stone i weaned myself off them slowly and actually started to feel something i hadent in years ''happiness'' but then i found out i have pcos then a few weeks after that my flat got broken into when sent me spiraling again :sigh: back on the anti depressants which i came off myself when i moved house last december and finally felt safe again, though im still terrified of night noises but then 5 days after i moved in my poor gorgeous mummy died! which im devestated about!:cry::cry::cry::wave_cry::wave_cry::wave_cry: she was only 54 and although was poorly she wasnt dying but although she was not fat she died young and it gave me a kick up the bum because i know how much my health has suffered over the last few years and i need to see my boy grow up and i dont want him to be an only child, at the mo im 27st 3lb which somehow is a stone less than 3 months ago:crazy::hmm:
