Sleep apnoea concern

[mazza141180]

***SELF PITY ALERT***


I'm struggling daily at the moment. I keep expecting something to go wrong and my op get cancelled and my head has always pre-empted failure and wants to be the reason I don't do it. I'm not sure if I'm making sense I know I do to me lol. Each time I contemplate sabotaging myself I run through my head how I'd feel and I know I'd not feel any better so it's stopping me from doing anything. I'm into my 5th week of my LSD now and I'm on the home stretch. I've got my sleep apnoea appointment tomorrow so that is a concern but otherwise all I keep thinking is that good things don't happen to me so why bother trying? I know I'm not going do anything it's just my head is all over the place and wondered if anyone else felt like this? ???

 

[Butterfly_lady]

Awe Mazza hunni I think you have done so well, positive thinking it WILL all go well and soon all this will be behind you xx

 

[femfrankie]

My heart goes out to you ...I also went through this. It was worse than the fear of the op itself. Right up until I went under I was waiting for something awful to happen and half expected to hear sorry but we can no longer do it. No amount of reassurance put my mind at rest. When I came round the first thing my hubby said to me was ..well they can't take it away from you now.
Fingers crossed for tomorrow hun but I'm sure all will be fine. Your on the home straight now. Well done on holding up to the pre op diet so far you have done fantastic xx

 

[mazza141180]

Hi fem, have tried to pm you but it won't send.


I am absolutely devastated, they have postponed my op for 2-3 months xxx

 

[femfrankie]

I got it mazza & pm'd you back hun .... As usual full of typos

I am sooo sorry that they did this to you but if its because of sleep apnea then they did right by you even if you feel like they have let you down badly. I am assuming they are going to give you a CPAP if they haven't already done so and you will more than likely have to get compliant with that first before surgery goes ahead. Hopefully with weight loss etc you will be able to live without it by the end of your journey. Don't see the effort you have put in as a waste of time either hun, it all goes a long way to making your upcoming surgery safer for you and come two months time i cant see them asking you to do as long a pre op as the one you have just finished. i am Devastated with you mazza ((((((Hugs))))))

 

[Ines4C]

Oh no, I'm so sorry for you. I know they have done it for your safety, but I can definitely understand your frustration... You almost completed your diet. Really sorry. ((((Hugs))))

 

[ChynaDoll]

Big hugs Mazza.. I'm really sorry that's happened and I hope you keep positive you've come so far already. Wish I could say something to cheer you up though <3

 

[shell13]

Oh mazza.i feel gutted for you.we are all treading on eggshells when it comes to these tests and keeping the weight off.just keep up the good work,you will get there,and it will all have been worth it.

 

[mazza141180]

Following the postponement of my op on the 4th I genuinely thought the blow would knock me back to old ways, but I'm really proud to report that whilst my weight loss is non existent I have gone nowhere near old ways! I used to drink 6-8 cans of diet coke a day, now it tastes foul to me! Also chocolate was my downfall and whilst I've had a couple of small bars in a couple of weeks its no where near the amount I used to have. I'm glad the 4.5wks on the milk diet actually no longer feel like it was wasted.

 

[Butterfly_lady]

Well done you, any news as to when the op will take place?

 

[femfrankie]

Well done mazza you are doing brilliantly considering the stress you must have been under over the past few weeks. Not long now till you get your Cpap and hopefully a little progress in that direction xx

 

[Ines4C]

Following the postponement of my op on the 4th I genuinely thought the blow would knock me back to old ways, but I'm really proud to report that whilst my weight loss is non existent I have gone nowhere near old ways! I used to drink 6-8 cans of diet coke a day, now it tastes foul to me! Also chocolate was my downfall and whilst I've had a couple of small bars in a couple of weeks its no where near the amount I used to have. I'm glad the 4.5wks on the milk diet actually no longer feel like it was wasted.

That's amazing. My op had been postponed for four weeks, and what did I do? Yes, I did get into my old ways for a week... You are doing better than I did, well done!

 

[ChynaDoll]

Well done xx

 

[Slimby50]

I started reading mazza's journey and it was like reading a best seller. I couldn't put the story down. Omg.... I was on a high with u as the weight come off, and then came crashing Down When the op was postponed. I know everyone has said this,but u have come so far. Keep going.xxxx

 

[mazza141180]

I'm back! After a few hectic months I've got a new date of 3rd feb. On day 2 of LSD and feeling the pain.
Hope you are all keeping well xx

 

[femfrankie]

Mazza!!! Welcome back hun!! That's super fantastic brilliant news!! Sooooo happy for you I'm dancing round the room xxxxxxx

 

[mazza141180]

Aww thanks hun. It's been hard getting back to here and I'm sorry I disappeared - just found it too difficult as having such a pants time!
Frankie you look bloody amazing I'm so proud of you! Well done xx

 

[femfrankie]

Thanks hun
I know hun I felt the devastation with you and can understand why you gave yourself a breakaway from us. The fact you did a six week preop too was gutting. How long is your pre op this time Mazza? Xxx

 

[mazza141180]

4 weeks, on day 3 - not too bad today. Yesterday was crap but onwards and downwards

 

[femfrankie]

Still a long haul but I'm sure you are just as driven as you were with the six weeks one .. Good luck xxxx