Morning, it's been yonks since I've updated on here as I've kept away for a while. I was feeling very low in November, tired all the time, sad, etc etc. Anyway, I had some tests and what have you and there was nothing physically wrong with me and I was diagnosed with depression. I have been trying to do things since then to make myself feel better and one of those things (rightly or wrongly) was to not get so hung up on my weight and obsess about what I was eating. So, I put away the scales for a while and didn't come on here for a bit. One of the reasons I have got depressed is, like so many people, I am really hard on myself all the time. I've convinced myself over the years that 'I'm not good enough' at whatever it might be and these last few months at work especially I've had to deal with a bullying boss who I had allowed to make me feel like that all over again. Then I would come on here and read stories about how amazingly some people are doing and I would think to myself, 'i can't even lose weight properly, even after a band, I'm a failure' etc etc, so I took a step back.
Anyway, I'm starting to feel a bit more like myself again now and now I understand better that I'm not a failure, it's just that everyone's different! I realised that there are actually a lot of people on here who are perhaps having the same struggles as me and that maybe we could help each other. If all there are on here were the lovely happy stories about how easy it was to lose weight with a band it could be misleading. Don't get me wrong, I know 100% that if I hadn't had my band I would not have lost nearly 4 stone in a year and for that reason I am eternally thankful. Despite everything I'm only a pound heavier than when I last recorded my weight on here so no harm done.
Anyways I want this to be a positive post, I've been in a darkish place and I now feel like I'm coming out of that place so I'm ready to get back on with my weight loss journey and start shedding a bit more in anticipation of the rest of 2012. Bring it on!!