OK OK Shel lol.
The evening went by pretty quickly as I was still a bit dozy. At one point Gordon mentioned the dogs and said they missed me, which made me miss them although I had only been away a day. I ended up in tears. My excuse is the effect of the anaesthetic and morphene!! Goedon kept encouraging me to press the morphene button because he said it was better than being in pain. When I refused, he would press it for me. I, personally, think that it was because I cted funny on it and kept dozing off, instead of rambling on and asking him the same questions over and over. He took photos of me to show my mum and a video recording, when I thought that my speech was back to normal. When I watched it later I sound like darth vader (sorry about the spelling!) and didn't make any sense!! I forgot to mention that I was given FasTab tablets to suck which tasted like raspberry.
Eventually, at around 10pm Gordon had to leave. They were extremely flexible with the visiting hours as everyone had a private room, but we thought it best not to push it, plus I'm sure Gordon was exhausted after the long day.
He left the TV on for me, but I still couldn't concentrate. When a new nurse came on shift with my tablet, I told her that I was feeling sick. She explained that it was the morphene and told me to stop pressing it unless I really needed it and gave me a sick bowl. I looked at the bowl for a while, but I, thankfully, wasn't sick.
The nauseous feeling continued and I made a point of keeping well away from the morphene, even with the pain. I kept having to buzz the nurse and she, eventually, put some pain killer in my drip to stop me feeling sick. She also kindly kept reheating the hot water bottle style pack that I had on my wounds to relieve the pain, which really helped. It honestly felt like it took absolutely ages to feel better. I was very hot and bothered and was so glad that I had my strawberry flavoured lipsol and mint spray to give me a more pleasant taste in my mouth. I spent a few hours of that night with my mini fan as well as the hospital fan on. My fan (from Curry's) was a God send because it had a water spray to cool me down.
As the hours passed I felt better. Despite this I couldn't settle for the night and decided to text my sister (in Australia), my mum and Gordon. Not surprisingly, it was only my sister who responded until my mum woke up at 5am. It was nice to have someone to chat to because I don't like being alone and have never had a private room in a hospital for that long. I did, however, struggle to text because I would drift off mid text and wake up with my phone in hand, having text lots of numbers instead of letters!! I recall having to use the commode once during the night. The nurses were never too far away and always willing to help. I didn't sleep properly throughout the night, but when I would I had some bizzare dreams. There was one where all I can remember is L plates where the L shape was made up of fruit! Bizarre! I had these dreams, especially ones involving fire, for a good week following the operation. I can only assume that it was the effect of the medication.
At around 8-9am, as it was Sunday, a nurse came in with my raspberry tablet and to poke me with the dreaded injection again. Not long after, when I as still working on sipping water and dissolving the tablet, a waiter came in with a tray. I could honestly not belive my eyes. Food had been the last thing on my mind, except the fruit in the dream, and they had given me a whole pot of tea to drink as well as a pot of natural youghurt, water and my tablet! This is when I realised that my attitude to food had changed. I sipped the tablet, for what seemed like forever, and reluctantly sipped a little bit of the milk that came for the tea. I toyed around with the spoon in the yoghurt, but didn't get very far at all. It wasn't that I was feeling sick, it was just that I wasn't hungry and couldn't contemplate eating or drinking. This was the second time in my 29 years on earth that I didn't fancy food, the first occassion being when my gran died. It is almost uheard of for me to turn down food or drink!
That morning, when I rang for the nurse, I was allowed to walk to the toilet. Of course it meant undoing my leg contraption and lugging the drip, but they disconnected the morphene machine, which I never want to see again. I was still very unsteady on my feel, feeling dizzy, tired and scared to move too fast in case my wounds would open!! I managed it though and felt very proud of myself. After the big ordeal, I was glad to be back in bed and felt exhausted. The morning drifted on and I watched the little birds in the tree outside my window. I was curious what the weather was like for some reason, but couldn't see past the tree.
Despite feeling tired, I was dying for a shower as I felt so sticky from the iodine and wanted to brush my teeth. The nurse took me off the drip only when she was happy that I'd sipped enough milk and water. I was escorted to the en suite and was over the moon to see the toothbrush and mouthwash to get rid of the bland taste in my mouth. I was helped into the shower and displayed enough balance to be left alone to wash. It was lovely! When I was done, Gordon arrived just in time to help me get my own pyjamas, brush my hair and to totter back into bed. I was glad to see him. it felt like eternity since he was there because of my insomnia and unconventional dreams.
He spent the afternoon with me. I was encouraged to sit in the chair, which I wasn't impressed about as my bust made it painful to sit upright. He had soup for luch with me. He eat his, which was bright green, I think to encourage me to eat my clear vegetable soup. Mine looked far more appetising than his, but I struggled to have more than a few spoonfuls. I was tired and bloated after lunch and headed to bed. Then, Gordon managed, unintentionally, to make me cry again!! He reminded me that this was now my new slimmer life and that I had come through it all and had everything to look forward to. It came as a shock to me, although it was the reason for being there in the first place. It was as if I had forgotten the purpose and had been living in my own little sickness and pain bubble since the operation. It made me so happy that the tears came flooding again. This time I blamed lack of sleep on my emotional state!