Thanks Emma Louise, I respect your insight and would agree that you maybe be better advised but when all different providers give all different "rules" to follow I think sometimes we have to trust ourselves abit to make the correct decisions and sometimes the mistakes. I love some of the advice and help ya'll give me but I think some comments I've read are purposefully presented on here with the intention of being nasty for nasty sake... It almost comes across bitter and angry at others failing. I never got my body in the state of being morbidly obese/super obese because "I" recognised the need to change ... I just couldn't maintain. I live a healthy lifestyle. I run half marathons . That doesn't give me the right to be nasty, opinionated or belittle someone who I know nothing about. I have a Few choice words as I've read the diaries of some of the rather " offensive" members and personally well done but seriously ....? Grow up and stop being bitter at others faults . For me it just puts me off and a lot of new members agree that it takes away the want to express our troubles/issues and it's a shame because like yourself there are some amazing insightful people we can learn from .... I personally could never talk to people that way. I was brought up with manners and to be respectful xxx much love