BandedHuns Mad Fat Diary

[BandedHun]

Thanks everyone, I knew some people out there could try and understand how this would be.

Just hug your pups for me because is sell my soul to just hug him for one last time , just one more walk, just one more slobbery kiss or sit on me like he did. Cherish them for me. Those little moments xxx

 

[flutterby1966]

:grouphugg: so sad for you x

 

[sparklysue]

So very sad for you, I could cry at your post. I have 2 dogs myself and love them with all heart. They are the life and soul of the house and I dread the day anything happens to either of them.
Remember the wonderful life you gave him and the joy he brought to you.

My heart goes to you xxxxx

 

[Madcatwoman]

So sorry. I lost my beautiful girl in October (cat) she had a stroke. It still breaks my heart when I think about her. It does get easier and you can remember the good times with a smile xx

 

[BandedHun]

I can think of him now and look at pictures, had small amount of food today too bit much though. But u well up everything time. This is the first time for my OH experiencing loosing a let , let alone your favourite ... I've never seen him cry so much. At costa we cheers our soft drinks to him and the treats just flew again, it's so up and down .

48 hours still doesn't feel like I'm not seeming him. The rational in my head says he's safe and not suifferung my heart is say **** why! Why now? Too soon. Too harsh and painful, I wasn't with him at the last second when he closed his everyday for the last time I was in his ear telling him I love him and that it's ok to let go baby. God the guilt, things I know now I didn't before. Get your pets foot prints, my regret. I wanted it, by, I can't get it, I always left it till -another day. ... I never got that day, **** mum xxxxx

 

[Crystalrainbow]

Hi Hunni so sorry to hear of your terrible loss, my heart goes out to you and reading your post has me in floods So sorry i didn't catch your thread sooner (had visitors this week) I cant begin to imagine how you must be feeling at this time but know all my love n hugs are heading your way. X X X X X RIP Teddy

 

[BandedHun]

Couldn't sleep last night, so took the sleeping tablets and just fell on the sofa. I'm trying to keep busy doing things. Eating very little cucumber mainly. Rains and pours in my life at the mo as the othe Bordeaux in distressed jumped into our piggies cage and grabbed our longest lasting guinea pig ( and favourite) Lola out , where she's grabbed her she's broken her hip I think. So off to the vets, again, to loose another of our favourites.
This week can F*ck right off as far as I'm concerned.
I'm angry inside today, just plain angry.

Hope your all doing marvellous things . Weight loss for me at the mo is the last thing in my mind, although I know it's occurring pretty darn fast. Stress and grief? The only thing they are good for xx

 

[Banderbird]

I'm so, so sorry to hear about Teddy. Losing a pet is just devastating. He was a stunning dog as well, and what a tragic way for him to go. Don't beat yourself up about it though, you did the very best you could for him, and up until then he'd had a lovely life.

RIP Teddy

Very sorry to hear about the guinea pig too, what an awful week for you hun.

Hope things get better for you asap.

 

[Juicy Lucy]

Oh BandedHun my heart goes out to you.

Bloat is the most evil of problems us giant dog owners can face.
My good friend breeds Newfoundlands, and I have seen her lose a few to bloat- and noone knows exactly what can prevent it... the recommendations change every year it seems.
I expect that even if you had got there sooner, it would still be unlikely you would have saved teddy. The critical point is very early on.

Big hugs to you.

Run free big man. xxx

 

[Nikola]

Hi Banded Hun my heart breaks for you :-(

I've got a tiny yorkie I love him so much he's 12 1/2 and just been diagnosed with heart failure it hurts so much.

Massive hugs sweetie xxx

 

[BandedHun]

Thanks everyone. Day 4 and still feel so empty on top of having our oldest guinea put to sleep yesterday , Lola. Feels crap,

Starting to suffer with old symptoms of anxiety, the feeling of panic attacks, it's crud. I'm trying to keep on too of it but reality is I can sense I'm heading that way. Still been trying to eat more. Differing with extreme nose bleeds and sickness. Everyday randomly my nose just pops and then I get real dizzy. Last night was gagging up fluids.

Can really feel the restriction at the mo too, rice is a no no,meats I really have to chew.

Nikola- my heart goes out to you. I hope every minute you got just hold the little pup. Big hugs and thinking of you xxx

 

[Penny pitstop]

Oh my. I have just read your diary, we are about the same height and weight and we're banded on the same day so read your diary back and forward. Oh how upsetting, I really feel for you. I too have lost my beautiful wee boy, my Max, my true companion and friend in such tragic circumstances. 3 weeks ago my OH and I went out for a Saturday night drink, before we went out my OH ate some bbq ribs, well long story short, Max got into the bones and ate them. He has never been a bucket raker but unfortunately on this occasion he did. He was so sick, I took him to the vet who advised leaving things for 24 hrs to see if he would pass them. I stayed up with him all night, he was so sick and next morning he was so weak that we took him to the vet straight away. He advised operation to remove the bone shards and told us he was very weak and to expect the worst. Well it was a roller coaster of emotions, he was getting better, then he wasn't, vet suggested we take him home as he was missing us too much. He was improving, getting better, Easter Monday I had the family over and my son brought his 2 dogs over, they were all having fun, a lovely day we were all feeling better and Max was so happy until the unthinkable.

My son and I took some cut garden refuse to the local recycling area only 5 mins away, we were gone no time but when we came back I could not find Max, btw Max was a westie aged 10, he had never ever tried to get out of the garden but on this occasion he had saw me drive away, squeezed under the gate and was run over outside our house and killed. I cannot get over it, I love him so much, my heart is breaking and I miss him so much. He was such a character and the house is so much quieter without him. I have 2 other dogs and whereby I love them for them, Max will always be my special boy.

I have went on a bit and I am sorry for that but I just wanted to let you know that terrible things can happen to good people and that it's normal to feel this bad about our pets. I hope you start to feel better soon. Take care

 

[BandedHun]

Oh penny, that's tragic. What an awful thing to have happened, I can feel your pain. Like you I still have the other additions one female Bordeaux and my partners English bull terrier but Tes like max, my baby boy. I can't tell you all, and I think it was his sheer size how everyone who came over got their pictures taken with him, or had to say hello.

I'm sending you massive hugs. Hoping that time heals, I know it does but what with still having another house to clear out and my daugthers birthday and just plain exhaustion, that finally I'll find peace with it. Just at the moment I hate my life and my new home, this fresh start? It's vile, I'm hating it. I wish it was this time last week when if just both my babies to the house with their new ( and super expensive pen made) ... My baby just didn't wanna be here. :-(

Still, eaten crap today. Feel like **** and beating myself up.

Need to get myself sorted. Get this blood pressure down and start looking after myself
Hugs xxxx

 

[BandedHun]

Urrrggghhhh!!!!

To make matters worse I came home today from a not stop day of gardening at the old house, dump runs, cleaning, school runs ... Me and the other half are dirty and exhausted and the step daughter has taken chocolate upstairs, coke and make up on the carpet.... 8 days!!!! £1500 worth of new carpet! Angry? Me? I blew my top! I'd had enough. Selfish little ***** I'm so angry. . . Then to cut a long story short after the abuse she Fs off and moves out. The girl does this all the time since her mum and dads divorce, the minute rules are in place,,, runs to the other. I felt sorry for her years ago and got back in touch for her dads sake, four years of tip toeing, giving her what she wants, living with the dirt and mess... She failed school...y? Coz there wee rules. She failed college... Y? Because there where rules and to her own parents disgust and thankfully I've not brought my daughter up that way, there were NEVER any consequences for those breaking of rules, parenting is bloody hard work. Letting your kids run away and get away with so much is just beyond me but I'm cold to it now, 7 years I've had to put up with this bull pants and my little girls grown up amongst it.

Good riddance to the selfish little girl.

I'm so angry at the moment. Still grieving old once the piggy and teddy, still stressed with having to hand back our old house and the huge legal battle we have surrounding that and my new job suffering. Enough's enough. OH and I are constantly rowing and this now , for me, is one less person to cause stress , pain and drama in my life.

What next in my griefy chapter....

I'm so sorry for ranting :-( xx

 

[Nikola]

Oh Hun that's rubbish - I will send you a message when I work out how to!

On a "lighter" note have you been weighed yet and how is the fill xx

 

[emmahc1975]

Goodness me, when it rains eh? Hope things look up for you soon & hope ur managing to cope diet wise better than you would have before your band. Hugs & more hugs

 

[WeightlossDreamer]

Jeepers creepers your going through it! Stay strong Hun all will come good in the end x x x

 

[BandedHun]

Thanks people, well today is my gorgeous little girlies 10 year birthday, so lucky she is so respectful , trustworthy, happy etc, I'm so proud of her,

Band wise, now we can get back on topic, I've not lost anymore weight than the 7lb since the fill and all this stress.

I'm hoping that today will be the last day we go back to the old house, last few dump runs and some furniture to place in storage. It's been exhausting.

It's a week today at 1842 when the vet phoned me, said there was nothing more they could do to save him. Where the week has gone and what's happened has just shocked me. Today I have to be happy and positive for my little girl.

I took her out to TGIs last night, couldn't order a kids meal though for me swapped with daughter. Stuffed. But I are well for the first day. I'm hoping to get out for a run / Jog tomorrow to try get the endorphins going, I really want to loose weight now. Concentrate on myself. Nice little manageable house, the two dogs still , the two piggies left and my OH and beautiful daughter to live for - plus a band that should help me loose this fatty boom boom I've become.

So here's a picture of me and the D last night

 

[flutterby1966]

You don't look like a fatty boom boom you look fab and happy x things will get better I am sure

 

[Yvessa]

What an adorable pic hun Well done for picking yourself up and dusting yourself off - definitely doing yourself an injustice though - you don't look fat at all!