BandedHuns Mad Fat Diary

[sharon2014]

Thank god!

Today I'm back to 11:12lbs .... Yaye at 5ft10 makes me healthy 24 BMI yaye. Right so only 19lbs to get to 10st 7lbs! Whoooo let's get this show on the road.

I didn't do my SW this weekend and just are the chocolate and cr@p food but I think keeping it all down at rather than PBing all the time helped start my metabolism again.

I'm at the dieticians on 25th oct and fill day and I really want them to put it back to 5.5ml rather than the 5.25ml I currently have.

I know they were concerned as I lost 22lbs in 5 weeks last set but now it's completely nothing - no loss no gain just stall time and I still want to be so much smaller. NOT in the 9st bracket like my other half thinks! I'd be anorexic! Lol but definately low 10 would feel fab

Anyway nails done today and a cheeky Sunbed followed by CV writing ... ( does anyone know how to do them who could help .... I've been in same job for 12 years and it's all new to me )

Gotta get motivated to move my career on

Anyway have a lovely day girls and guys and I'll update tonight with how my mood is etc ....

<3 <3

thanks love and well done on the losses! xx

that fill will help for sure xx

 

[WeightlossDreamer]

Google some cv templates Hun x x

 

[BandedHun]

Hey hey.

Had a very small bowl of cereal for breakfast , had my nails done and just had lunch (see picture) managed the chicken and cucumber ... Can't manage the yoghurt so going to mix that with a meringue nest and frozen berries tonight after dinner for desert kinda a fake Eton Mess... My favourite!

Brought three new tops today too. All swing sake tops , all size 12s! Whoopie!!!! Hoping this week will go better and I can keep the two lbs off.

Does anyone else find themselves having to force food down at lunch time coz they are just not hungry?

I'm trying so desperately hard since speaking with dreamer that the long 12 hours between eating are what's stopping me from eating enough and making my band potentially tighten... Oooh I'm so sensitive! I never thought at 5.25-5.5mls is be at the green zone where my hungers manageable. I think of I had 6ml I'd be so restricted. I am being super strong now though and when I get pain ( little bits ) I fight really strong to keep the food down as opposed to bring it up which is so much easier as the pain goes instantly , but you end up with sore tongue and throat .

Anyways I'll upload dinner pictures and desert too so people get a feel for my meal sizes and ideas and consumption .....

 

[BandedHun]

Had my nails done baby pink too seeing as I'm off work for some time ;-)

 

[sharon2014]

Hey hey. Had a very small bowl of cereal for breakfast , had my nails done and just had lunch (see picture) managed the chicken and cucumber ... Can't manage the yoghurt so going to mix that with a meringue nest and frozen berries tonight after dinner for desert kinda a fake Eton Mess... My favourite! Brought three new tops today too. All swing sake tops , all size 12s! Whoopie!!!! Hoping this week will go better and I can keep the two lbs off. Does anyone else find themselves having to force food down at lunch time coz they are just not hungry? I'm trying so desperately hard since speaking with dreamer that the long 12 hours between eating are what's stopping me from eating enough and making my band potentially tighten... Oooh I'm so sensitive! I never thought at 5.25-5.5mls is be at the green zone where my hungers manageable. I think of I had 6ml I'd be so restricted. I am being super strong now though and when I get pain ( little bits ) I fight really strong to keep the food down as opposed to bring it up which is so much easier as the pain goes instantly , but you end up with sore tongue and throat . Anyways I'll upload dinner pictures and desert too so people get a feel for my meal sizes and ideas and consumption .....

Oh love the shopping, size 12 tops I dream about lol xxx

I find at lunch I can take it or leave it but have been having at least 1/2 shake which seems to curb that feeling in tummy xx

Love the nails!!!

Xx

 

[tweetybaby]

Loving the nails and top buying!

 

[Daphneb]

You're doing marvelously Hun! The size 12 tops and nails must be a fab confidence booster.

Hun, I also eat on a side plate but it is a bit more loaded than yours! I'm now 3.5 weeks post op, first fill at 6 weeks, and can honestly say I feel no restriction and am surviving on diet mode discipline and will power. This is a sample of my daily intake:

Breakfast ... 1 wheetbix with milk
Morning snack ... banana /apple and yoghurt
Lunch ... chicken / mince and veg or soup
Afternoon snack ... slice ham and laughing cow cheese
Dinner ... chicken / mince and veg or soup

My Fitbit says it's usually about 1000 calories. I did think I'd manage to eat less and lose more. I'm also only walking about 6000 steps. So far in 3 weeks I have lost about 7 kgs or 15.5 lbs.

Who else wants to share their daily menu and weekly loss, exercise, etc to make comparisons with your WLS type? We could learn a lot from each other!

Sorry to 'hijack' your diary, Hun. We could move over to a new thread?

 

[WeightlossDreamer]

I still eat off a side plate too. Some days I'm ravenous some I'm not bug it keeps your metabolism goin eating regular so I'll eat anyway even if it's just a little but x x

 

[BandedHun]

You're doing marvelously Hun! The size 12 tops and nails must be a fab confidence booster. Hun, I also eat on a side plate but it is a bit more loaded than yours! I'm now 3.5 weeks post op, first fill at 6 weeks, and can honestly say I feel no restriction and am surviving on diet mode discipline and will power. This is a sample of my daily intake: Breakfast ... 1 wheetbix with milk Morning snack ... banana /apple and yoghurt Lunch ... chicken / mince and veg or soup Afternoon snack ... slice ham and laughing cow cheese Dinner ... chicken / mince and veg or soup My Fitbit says it's usually about 1000 calories. I did think I'd manage to eat less and lose more. I'm also only walking about 6000 steps. So far in 3 weeks I have lost about 7 kgs or 15.5 lbs. Who else wants to share their daily menu and weekly loss, exercise, etc to make comparisons with your WLS type? We could learn a lot from each other! Sorry to 'hijack' your diary, Hun. We could move over to a new thread?

Are u full when you eat your one weetabix in the morning? You could up that to increase it.

I promise once you have your first fill you WILL feel restriction. Daphne I was the same as you . No real restriction, I are steak and rice and bread fine ... Then they put 4ml in on my first full and I was like .... WOW ! I was PBing and burning I vomitted because all my fast eating habits grew back, stick with it it will all fall into place soon.

Your weight loss is fabulous! 15.5lbs in three weeks! Well done super star. We all have different journeys and mine most definitelyr did not start until I'd started having the fills. Then it's flown off.

My dinner is pictures below . Ate possibly 1/3 of it.... But calorie counted the lot

100g chicken breast
3 small potato (90g)
Broccoli
Onions
Sweetcorn
1tsp of gravy! = 280kcal dinner

My Eton mess desert. Creme fraiche meringue and frozen berries ... Oh and my new 12 swing tops. I'm shocked coz they are not stretchy at all. They hang lovely and are so flattering to wear . I thought I'd look huge but they are actually so flattering . So girls get to the dorethy Perkins sales and pick them up ;-) £5-£7 per top instead of £20

;-) ;-)

 

[Daphneb]

Thanks I am pleased with the weight loss but typically would like it to go faster than it is ... patience!

I find the quantity is fine for the moment, but I'm more than ready to nibble a couple of hours later. I think its also because my focus is still on what, when, how often etc etc I can eat. The Battle is definitely played in the mind as well as the belly!

I am looking forward to the fill though so that I can eat less and hopefully lose more. I have given myself a year ... but would prefer 6 months to get to 'goal' wherever that may be with continually shifting goal posts

 

[sharon2014]

Are u full when you eat your one weetabix in the morning? You could up that to increase it.

I promise once you have your first fill you WILL feel restriction. Daphne I was the same as you . No real restriction, I are steak and rice and bread fine ... Then they put 4ml in on my first full and I was like .... WOW ! I was PBing and burning I vomitted because all my fast eating habits grew back, stick with it it will all fall into place soon.

Your weight loss is fabulous! 15.5lbs in three weeks! Well done super star. We all have different journeys and mine most definitelyr did not start until I'd started having the fills. Then it's flown off.

My dinner is pictures below . Ate possibly 1/3 of it.... But calorie counted the lot

100g chicken breast
3 small potato (90g)
Broccoli
Onions
Sweetcorn
1tsp of gravy! = 280kcal dinner

My Eton mess desert. Creme fraiche meringue and frozen berries ... Oh and my new 12 swing tops. I'm shocked coz they are not stretchy at all. They hang lovely and are so flattering to wear . I thought I'd look huge but they are actually so flattering . So girls get to the dorethy Perkins sales and pick them up ;-) £5-£7 per top instead of £20

;-) ;-)

Hey love, nice tops!!

I am looking forward to my first fill, although im doing good at the moment and it maybe in my head but find myself saying what can i have...then remember on band and stop myself hopefully that will stop when first fill is in!!
xx

was your dinner on a side plate? looks lovely!! xx

 

[kurstywursty]

Branded I have just read your diary. Taken me hours LOL I laughed, felt like crying, felt your pain so badly. Thank you

When I put up my dairy I originally typed out a soul baring history. I lost the connection to the forum due to a bad internet connection at my static. The dairy never posted. I actually felt a rush of relief and decided to post much shorter, less open diary. I realised that I felt too vulnerable. My life is generally an open book and I always end up feeling that others are in a stronger position than me as they keep something of themselves to themselves and they know everything about me, weaknesses an all

My band is something I have kept secret. Hubby, best friend who has had a band any my old aunt are the only ones who know. This is sooooo unusual for me as I am generally an open person

I just wanted to let you know I have walked in some of your footsteps. Years in OA, depression, self loathing, desperation, I actually self harmed at one point and had a cry for help many years ago. I am so glad you girls have had your band now....I have waited until I was 54. I actually saw a therapist within the eating disorder team for 7 years and my head is in a great place...I just could not conquer the food related stuff....I have amazing coping mechanisms for all the others **** life throws at me . So now with this amazing tool, I hopefully can get over the last hurdle, my compulsive eating and the negative self image resulting from it

Thank you again for your amazing diary xx

 

[kurstywursty]

You're doing marvelously Hun! The size 12 tops and nails must be a fab confidence booster. Hun, I also eat on a side plate but it is a bit more loaded than yours! I'm now 3.5 weeks post op, first fill at 6 weeks, and can honestly say I feel no restriction and am surviving on diet mode discipline and will power. This is a sample of my daily intake: Breakfast ... 1 wheetbix with milk Morning snack ... banana /apple and yoghurt Lunch ... chicken / mince and veg or soup Afternoon snack ... slice ham and laughing cow cheese Dinner ... chicken / mince and veg or soup My Fitbit says it's usually about 1000 calories. I did think I'd manage to eat less and lose more. I'm also only walking about 6000 steps. So far in 3 weeks I have lost about 7 kgs or 15.5 lbs. Who else wants to share their daily menu and weekly loss, exercise, etc to make comparisons with your WLS type? We could learn a lot from each other! Sorry to 'hijack' your diary, Hun. We could move over to a new thread?

Daphne's..you diet looks amazing for under 4 weeks post op! I am two tomorrow and just gone on to purée. Are you eating your food whole?

I have to go for a fill at 4 weeks and am concerned that I will still be eating soft foods :-(

 

[Daphneb]

Hi Kursty. It seems everyone is given different advice! Mine for week 1 was liquid, week 2 was pureed, weeks 3 to 6 is soft ... chopped up, chewed well, mashed, etc with gravy or sauce. I'm restricted with some of the types of food ... no acidic (oranges, pineapple, etc) stringy (chicken breast, steak, etc), hard (nuts etc) or 'windy' (beans, cabbage, etc) foods, but I'm finding it quite easy and 'normal' so far.

I find if I do it slowly it goes down well with no pain, discomfort etc. I only eat about 250ml at a time ... so always on a small plate. A lot of the advice I've found here and try follow is 20 .. 20 .. 20. Chew for 20 seconds; wait for 20 seconds; and finish or leave in 20 minutes.

I'm not having difficulty with the band at all, so hopefully it stays that way!

 

[BandedHun]

Thanks I am pleased with the weight loss but typically would like it to go faster than it is ... patience! I find the quantity is fine for the moment, but I'm more than ready to nibble a couple of hours later. I think its also because my focus is still on what, when, how often etc etc I can eat. The Battle is definitely played in the mind as well as the belly! I am looking forward to the fill though so that I can eat less and hopefully lose more. I have given myself a year ... but would prefer 6 months to get to 'goal' wherever that may be with continually shifting goal posts

How much have u got to loose daphne?

A years good, it will give u time to let your head catch up with the band. Definately what I struggle with . On some days I find I'm still pouring out portions I think I can eat ( last nights dinner and desert for example ) only to not eat half the amount .... Crazy. It will make sense once the fills kick in and u just don't feel hunger .... Strange having to force food in . I still have days where I want to eat the way I did. On a binge but I just can't. It's a safe feeling with the band ;-)

 

[BandedHun]

Branded I have just read your diary. Taken me hours LOL I laughed, felt like crying, felt your pain so badly. Thank you When I put up my dairy I originally typed out a soul baring history. I lost the connection to the forum due to a bad internet connection at my static. The dairy never posted. I actually felt a rush of relief and decided to post much shorter, less open diary. I realised that I felt too vulnerable. My life is generally an open book and I always end up feeling that others are in a stronger position than me as they keep something of themselves to themselves and they know everything about me, weaknesses an all My band is something I have kept secret. Hubby, best friend who has had a band any my old aunt are the only ones who know. This is sooooo unusual for me as I am generally an open person I just wanted to let you know I have walked in some of your footsteps. Years in OA, depression, self loathing, desperation, I actually self harmed at one point and had a cry for help many years ago. I am so glad you girls have had your band now....I have waited until I was 54. I actually saw a therapist within the eating disorder team for 7 years and my head is in a great place...I just could not conquer the food related stuff....I have amazing coping mechanisms for all the others **** life throws at me . So now with this amazing tool, I hopefully can get over the last hurdle, my compulsive eating and the negative self image resulting from it Thank you again for your amazing diary xx

Ahhhh! Kurstywursty- I KNOW exactly what your talking about "the open book" I've lost so many so called friends to this whole diseased mind believing if I'm open and honest everyone will like me , when in turn they just abuse your honesty and turn on you. Like you I know how your feeling and sometimes it takes someone else to open up to realise there are some beautiful genuine people out there.

My current crisis with work is the same issue , my past coming back to haunt me and granted there are days I just want to kill myself with pain and fear over the unknown , days I rip into my OH with anger over what's happening to my life but having the band has taken the one massive insecurity I have away, lb by lb one day at a time . I don't have to worry over food/ the control / the obsessive compulsive eater in me . I can get up out a 12/14 clothes on and eat what and when I feel like it - I can't self harm myself thru food anymore. It feels like New me but inside the worth isn't the new me. My head still isn't seeing what everyone else sees. I see myself as a plain kinda nice girl who wants to help everyone but when bad things happen it makes me believe I'm not a nice girl. I'm Ugly . I'm worthless. Meeting the people on here has opened up a door I never believed I would have opened. Having others share there fears aniextys and share the fact the KNOW how I FEEL.... Overwhelms me ... When the likes of yours self and daphne message me saying it was like hearing myself speak about myself ... It inspires and amazes me whole heartedly . Depression , EDs and fear are horrible lonely places and this for me is MY space to share / help / rant and inspire others with the same issues to never feel alone again

<3 <3 <3<3

 

[Daphneb]

It's that age old question ... How much should I weigh ... and the old saying, you can't be too rich or too thin ;-)

But at 45 I've realised I'll never be a skinny woman although I was a skinny child. In 2010/ 2011, I got down to my lightest weight in 20 years having lost 30kg or 66 lbs and putting the majority back on again. I felt I could have lost at least another 10 kg's before the upward spiral began :-(

So my first goal is to get down to 75 kg ... 10 kg's less than I managed last major diet, which means I needed to lose about 39 kg's or 85 lbs or 6 stone? ... and have lost 15.5 lbs do far. Not sure how the conversion works exactly.

That should see my 5'6" frame in a size 12 or 14 .... Happy days!!!! Seems like a pipe dream, but don't wake me!

 

[BandedHun]

It's that age old question ... How much should I weigh ... and the old saying, you can't be too rich or too thin ;-) But at 45 I've realised I'll never be a skinny woman although I was a skinny child. In 2010/ 2011, I got down to my lightest weight in 20 years having lost 30kg or 66 lbs and putting the majority back on again. I felt I could have lost at least another 10 kg's before the upward spiral began :-( So my first goal is to get down to 75 kg ... 10 kg's less than I managed last major diet, which means I needed to lose about 39 kg's or 85 lbs or 6 stone? ... and have lost 15.5 lbs do far. Not sure how the conversion works exactly. That should see my 5'6" frame in a size 12 or 14 .... Happy days!!!! Seems like a pipe dream, but don't wake me!

Yes I think small achievable goals are much better with this journey . The dad diet yo to days for me I never actually let myself see how I actually looked ...

Your doing fab daphne - keep it up u WILL get there

 

[emmahc1975]

Going back to an earlier topic a bit but i wanted to tell u that I'm no longer a nando's virgin lol. 5 chicken wings & mash & frozen lemonade yogurt r now gone. Yum! Shocking calories but a treat was needed!

 

[WeightlossDreamer]

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