BandedHuns Mad Fat Diary

[emmahc1975]

It was pretty good! Defiantly happy that I managed to eat it without a trip to the loo to pb! I shared the mash with baby & he had my garlic bread. The chicken was amazing! My 2 year old enjoyed his too, apart from the 'funny beans', baby happily ate them though! My grown up boy (he's 21 in December) made the most of mums treat, he ate about 4 times the amount i did! He made the most of the free coke & ice cream refills! Mind u, whatever he eats he remains the same weight, he didn't inherit his mums fat genes!

 

[Crystalrainbow]

I'm gogggling nandos i cant beleive it lol omg 70 odd miles away

 

[BandedHun]

So today after doing two days in SW my stall has now reduced to 11:11 YAYE!!!!!! Finally it's gone down again! Ok granted only by 1lb .... But it's 1lb. Yaye, got till 25th Oct till next hospital fill.

So my food today was weetabix mini , skimmed milk and small banana. Ate 1/2 ish .... So only really 200kcals maximum ...

Lunch was wafer thin ham/ chicken and cucumber

Dinner - ( see photo ) was amazing extra lean steak mince ( -4% ) made with egg garlic and onion and paprika into ham burgers! Yummmmmyyyyyy ( highly recommend. ) then I put a slice of dairylea light cheese slice and onions and mushrooms and made home made chunky chips, oh it was yum. Managed 4 chips and 3/4 of my cheese beef burger. Oh gosh I loved it. So flavoursome. My daugther loved it. And my OH smashed his ( they had there's in wholemeal bap) I still have 500 kcal's left so managed 700 kcal's today but I'm just trying do hard with healthier food.

Tonight for desert we had lemon curd mixed with quark topped with meringue and strawberries. I do find fruit so very hard to swallow. Slight PBing. But it was nice to eat a desert every night . Coop meringues are 50kcal with strawberries and quark and lemon curd it's literally 100kcal desert. Lovely jubley

So my little girl is off to her new primary school tomorrow after having to leave in order to get into a better secondary school and they are on a school residential trip straight away. Bless her. I'm so anxious for her, where she's been in America with her dad for 23 days she's put on so much weight and at the age of 10 she weights 9st 12 granted she's tall and wears a size 7 feet already but she's so self conscious now with her body changing, I feel so responsible as I used to just let her eat the crap I was binging on ... Just coz I felt she needed it to prove I loved her but now I see that since the band she developed those same bad habits as I did. Comfort eating, boredom eating, so the SW meals will really help and my fridge is full of good foods and water now - only light crisps and no biscuits or chocolate, she's been snacking on fruit whenever now and she's loving it! I hope her year 6 year goes well and she loses some weight and gains some confidence. I love her so much she's amazing!

Anyway off to bed as I've a long day tomorrow with getting up early and school day again and waiting for her to go to her trip ....

Night everyone

 

[BandedHun]

Going back to an earlier topic a bit but i wanted to tell u that I'm no longer a nando's virgin lol. 5 chicken wings & mash & frozen lemonade yogurt r now gone. Yum! Shocking calories but a treat was needed!

Yaye!!!! I love nandos and it's soooo good meat and mash!!!! Did u pick up a loyalty card???? Xxx

 

[BandedHun]

I'm gogggling nandos i cant beleive it lol omg 70 odd miles away

Crystal I'm so sad for you, when you next holiday .... Find a local nandos and go for a treat ;-)

 

[emmahc1975]

No loyalty card, its 10+ miles away so i dont think I'll be going often!
Its so difficult when it comes to your children's eating habits. I know that my bad eating habits started from around age 12 & although it is only my own actions that got me fat, binging & making bad choices, I can see how my parents attitude to food had a huge influence over my behaviour. Both my parents have a 'fat' tendency. My dad was 16 stone at 16 (unusual in the 1960's) & put more on till his early 20's. He lost his weight mid 20's through realising his problem & exercise. He remains over weight now at just under 15 stone but is very fit & healthily as he is active, walks a lot & does manual jobs for friends (he's retired). He does love his biscuits & beer though but wont touch chocolate! My mum was always thin, lost weight when she was pregnant with me in her early 30's but gained weight since & has been overweight for as long as I can remember. I think she's around 18 stone now, she claims to eat very little but I can see she is deluding herself because she has too many cakes etc with her friends.
Family meal times were always an occasion & emphasis was put on finishing your food, praise was given for eating all your food & treats given if you did. Occasionally unfinished dinners were punished with being moved to the kitchen to eat it on my own, even if i didn't like it. Even today my mum uses food as a positive social family experience, with silly amounts of food, followed by a choice of puddings!
I chose to not make food an issue at all with my now grown up boy & he has always maintained a healthy weight. I did hide my own food issues from him though, especially my binge tendency. I hope i can do the same with my 2 year old & baby. I certainly dont want them to see my issues or have the same issues.
Gosh, didn't expect to write such an essay!

 

[BandedHun]

It's a breath of fresh air to read Ems thank you.

It's so hard for me as her dad and step mum are obese. Inactive and don't encourage any regular movement. They eat takeouts most nights and when I see my daughter bloated and upset as none of her clothes fit ( she's wearing my leggings and jumpers ) I just wanna wrap her up in cotton wool and take it all away so making her the beef burgers and chips and wholemeal bread / baps etc ... Hoping it will help her enjoy food and realise the junk isn't great at all ... So treating her with the fruit deserts etc after dinner I'm hoping will help. It is hard but I can't sit back and watch the most important person in my life become obese coz her dad and partner are. I want her to enjoy life and note self conscious . Shall see how she gets on over the coming weeks .... Night guys xxx

 

[emmahc1975]

It really is difficult. My parents attempts to help me didn't work. Dad thought that forcing me to go running would help, i just felt vulnerable, embarrassed & really fat. Mum thought that going to a slimming club would help but really it just re-inforced my own fat state of mind. They tried getting my cookery teacher to help too but i just took it as they'd told the whole school that I was fat, silly how u think but I did!

 

[WeightlossDreamer]

I'm sure seeing you struggle and go through this whole journey Hun will help your daughter see she doesn't want that for herself. I'm sure with your slimming world recipes the weight will just keep dropping off too! Plus it sounds like she's really enjoyin it x x

 

[BandedHun]

So today after sticking to just 6 syns for the day I'm at 11:10 ... Whoooo not far off 11.7 which was my first goal.... Eeeek! The healthier eating is great, had two compliments in my little swing tops saying I look "tiny" I think it's just a flattering top on me, unfitted around the gut! No mummy belly can be seen.

Just cooking a pulled pork joint now ready for a jacket and broccoli later.

Had Ham deals for lunch and a skinny costa small latte for breakfast ( 88kvals) but in blinking SW .... It's 3.5 syns! I mean really!!!! Jesus! Or as Harry hill says susaj! ( pronounced sausage! ;-) )

Off for cinema again tonight to see SEX TAPE.... Whoooo ... I need to I'm feel hormonal today, tired and anxious about my daughter as get first day at catholic school :-( she was so shy and then as they are on residential trip she had no one to sit with. I'm hoping she will have a great time.... Pls god, I've never been the anxious mum but seeing how self conscious and shy ages become since being away with her dad for so long, I'm upset and trying my hardest to reinforce lots of positives for her ..... Roll on Friday :-(

 

[sharon2014]

So today after sticking to just 6 syns for the day I'm at 11:10 ... Whoooo not far off 11.7 which was my first goal.... Eeeek! The healthier eating is great, had two compliments in my little swing tops saying I look "tiny" I think it's just a flattering top on me, unfitted around the gut! No mummy belly can be seen.

Just cooking a pulled pork joint now ready for a jacket and broccoli later.

Had Ham deals for lunch and a skinny costa small latte for breakfast ( 88kvals) but in blinking SW .... It's 3.5 syns! I mean really!!!! Jesus! Or as Harry hill says susaj! ( pronounced sausage! ;-) )

Off for cinema again tonight to see SEX TAPE.... Whoooo ... I need to I'm feel hormonal today, tired and anxious about my daughter as get first day at catholic school :-( she was so shy and then as they are on residential trip she had no one to sit with. I'm hoping she will have a great time.... Pls god, I've never been the anxious mum but seeing how self conscious and shy ages become since being away with her dad for so long, I'm upset and trying my hardest to reinforce lots of positives for her ..... Roll on Friday :-(

Wooo well done!! I bet you did look tiny!! as long as you feel comfortable in them thats all that matters!

I recycled loads clothes, 3 bags to be exact of too big clothes and it felt amazing!!

Thats brilliant with the eating love, you wont be long on seeing the first target!!

I hope your daughter got on OK today, i bet when she got there she had a great time!!

Keep it up love xxx

 

[kurstywursty]

I'm glad SW is working for you babe x

 

[tweetybaby]

Great news! You'll be buying a size smaller soon x

 

[BandedHun]

Thanks people!

Ruined it tonight, obviously being slightly anxious and feeling sick with worry over daughter on her residential trip my OH took me to see sex tape! Great film.... Highly recommended ... But I are a whole small popcorn and diet coke, now any of you who know me know I'd given up fizzy but the more I eat out the more it's always the cheaper option to have refill fizzy drinks. But I'm drinking less and less water as a result :-( sad times.... So I started drinking the coke then could ... Not ... Resist the popcorn ... Puff then it was all gone!

Ooopsie! Oh well I do expect to do well this week but I'm hoping for 4lb loss this week... Pleasseeeee.....

Go see sex tape the film. Cameron Diaz and Jason Siegel from muppets and forgetting Sarah Marshall , bad teacher. It's so hillarious

Today's food has been ok but I blew it and I was stressed and struggling coz stress ( bad work news too :-s )

 

[sharon2014]

Thanks people! Ruined it tonight, obviously being slightly anxious and feeling sick with worry over daughter on her residential trip my OH took me to see sex tape! Great film.... Highly recommended ... But I are a whole small popcorn and diet coke, now any of you who know me know I'd given up fizzy but the more I eat out the more it's always the cheaper option to have refill fizzy drinks. But I'm drinking less and less water as a result :-( sad times.... So I started drinking the coke then could ... Not ... Resist the popcorn ... Puff then it was all gone! Ooopsie! Oh well I do expect to do well this week but I'm hoping for 4lb loss this week... Pleasseeeee..... Go see sex tape the film. Cameron Diaz and Jason Siegel from muppets and forgetting Sarah Marshall , bad teacher. It's so hillarious Today's food has been ok but I blew it and I was stressed and struggling coz stress ( bad work news too :-s )

Oh I'm going to cinema on Saturday.. Hope to see that for a cheer up!!

One day hopefully won't make a difference but understandable how ur feeling today!!

Sorry to hear work still isn't ok... nothing worse than going to a job u dread xxx

 

[kurstywursty]

Banded. Your human, you can't be perfect every day. Put it into perspective....before the op it may have been a giant bucket! ((((Huggs)))))

 

[Crystalrainbow]

Come on hun dont beat yourself up, we are all human and dont forget this banded thingy is for life now, if we can't have a treat once in a while then its a sad show lol hands up i've had a crap week but hey ho tomorrow is weigh day, then i will kick myself and move on If your expecting a -4 this week then my god woman you deserve that blooming popcorn
Hope your daughter doing ok sweetheart, i know its hard but sometimes we have to trust all will be well in the long run same as work, it will all work out for the best in the end. I have a great motto in life 'you have to let somethings go in your life to welcome in something new' so let it all go hunni something wonderful must be waiting around the corner for you x x x x

 

[BandedHun]

Thanks girls I've taken my meds and off to bed. Just preying no nightmares and a full nights sleep

Mucho love

 

[sharon2014]

Goodnight love x

 

[Crystalrainbow]

Mucho love back sweetheart...... sweetdreams x x xx x