Hi all, I haven't been around much today as I've had a really bad eating day. It wasn't just a case of overeating, I actually binged to the point where I was sick. I'm feeling completely ashamed of myself now and wondering why I did this.
Last night it was my book club and I offered to host it, so I put out lots of nibbles and when everyone arrived they brought food as well. So I have basically been eating the left overs all day, starting with 2 cheese scones for breakfast. I then made it 10 times worse by deciding to take Charlie out for lunch and having chicken and leek pie, then coming home and heading straight for the snack tin.
I know I have a problem with compulsive eating (we never have any snacks in the house as I will eat them, Richard sometimes buys them for him and Charlie and he has to hide them) but I don't think I have ever experienced anything like today. I feel like a complete disgrace and ashamed of myself.
This has made me wonder why I compulsive eat, yes I was abused, and yes my dad wasn't the greatest but I thought I'd moved on from that. Oh I just don't know what's going on!!! Sorry for such a negative post, but I am going to do 1 positive thing tonight and thats to bin everything!!