Gosh TB-what a hard time you've had on this journey. Hope the liquids are going well (again!). Does this really long time on fluids and purees mean you've lost a to of eight or are you just worn out by it?
Hope all goes well from here on in
xx
Thanks. I am really trying hard not to focus on how much weight I have lost because it is not a lot and I also had to deal with losing 9 pounds I gained during the surgery which nearly caused me to have a complete breakdown - sorry to sound dramatic but that is how it was.
Walsall seem to have a regime for banders which appears to be different from everyone else. I am telling myself those are the rules and I am going to follow them. It is not too bad being back on the liquids. At least it is only for 2 weeks this time. As I start to get over the op I am able to do things - like cleaning my flat which looks like Armageddon on a bad day
. So far I have not felt hungry but I am sure that will change.
I suppose the one thing to come out of all of this - and I am still trying to get y head around it - is my relationship with food. In the days after the op I really had to think about things in terms of how I was going to deal with it, having gone in for one procedure and prepared for it and coming out with something else. It has made me appreciate how hard banders have to work to achieve good results and if this is going to work for me then I need to pay a lot more attention to the nutrition side of things and what I am putting into my body.
I have been cooking meals from scratch so I know exactly what is being used in terms of ingredients. As I haven't yet had a chance to get into a routine of eating 'normal' meals I have been experimenting on Mr TB and he is still alive last time I checked
. I am no Delia!!
The other thing is that I need to get into doing some exercise - something that I have not been able to do for sometime as I was so immobile before my op. I am no gym bunny - I hate the places (sorry all you gym goers) so I am going to have to come up with some routines I can do at home. The wii and I are going to become best friends
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Finally, I am going to have to make one major lifestyle change and this is the one that is going to be the biggest challenge and that is to become selfish. That means I will not be spending every waking hour dedicated to my job because the stress of that gig has twice robbed me of health and it is not going to do it a third time. How they will take it at work I am not quite sure. One of the things I have thought about is looking for another job and taking a massive pay cut. Still thinking about that one...
So yes it has not been an easy journey and after the talk with the surgeon I am glad to be alive and be able to sit here and type this and glad I have a tool to help me put my life back on track.
Sorry that was a longer post than I intended
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tranquil x
