Hi ladies and gents, sorry Ive not been about. Just been on my own little planet away from everyone and everything trying to sort things out with work, hospital and stuff..
Im still shoveling anti sickness daily to keep fluids down and eat. however the food intake has increased in volume and reduced in frequency so i guess it levels out. Full of beans.. literally. fed up of the little beggars! chilli beans, baked beans, curry beans, green beans, adouki beans or whatever there called but it seems to be doing something? I feel like I have more energy and am now maintaining weight and no further loss. Good or bad I dunno.. I gained a couple of lbs but theyve gone, but if i gained a stone I wouldnt care.
Ive been doing stupid hours at work as the overtimes available due to our annual billing period and Im not longer "barred" so that helps pay the bills and debts incurred over last year have now finally gone woohoo! Bless slave labour..
Ive been going to the gym while the opportunity is there and enjoying it. no longer a chore but something i enjoy along with my daily walks with Stig. Ive been ice skating with my niece again, were turning pro and will have no probs getting cast in the next Disney on Ice production I reckon because we are so legendary! All I can say is its a good job my bottom already has a crack in it otherwise Id be concerned with the number of crashes its had on the ice and rollerblades. Saying all with bruises and bumps, my street creds gone up with the 5 year olds and 4 year olds (niece and nephews) so thats pretty good. were all as equally clumsy and sulk when we fall and thats a good group effort
Since the gastroscopy I felt it necessary to dig a little deeper into a few things particularly with how I feel about the whole thing. Ive been trying no to stress about things, and I have. On the same token busying myself with babysitting, work, looking like a right idiot in rollerblades and gardening knee pads (forget paying £15 for pads when u got poundland gardening pads) means I havent had time to dwell on things. The omg.. what now? what if.. maybes and things that drive you insane.
I had a call from the hospital last week. The main consultant Mr K (and chief medical director) has been consulting with the team and wants to see me as soon as possible. I have an appointment tomorrow at 10:20am. Really looking forward to it - should get answers from the big cheese, right? ooh another flying pig!!
Ive also been advised by the team I can now apply for a tummy tuck, Im overjoyed! Im still in pieces and in need of assembley - correctly - Id love to live a more normal less futile existence and get my sag bags, and flubber sorted out. but can I trust them? no.. why try offer something else to add to the problems if they cant/havnt fixed one thing. I shall let you know the answer to that question tomorrow.. to be fair, I quite like my flubber. Ok some days its a hinderance, but it keeps me warm in my bike stuff so its all good.
Ive had quite the productive day today, managed to acomplish a fair bit at work, came home, cleaned the house from top to bottom (my flat is dinky) cleaned the windows inside and out, cleaned the porch and windows. defrosted the fridge, done the laundry, sorted out clothes - too bigs, fit ok, getting loose and the haha! wtf you thinking of trying to fit in this!?!? pile.. been interesting.
Regardless of what happens tomorrow it can only get better. Ive decided further to discussions with my gp that the anti sickness pills need to be knocked on the head. Im experiencing other problems as a possible consequence - pins and needles in neck, face and hands periodically, runs, stomach cramps, aches in the side. Long term its going to cause more harm than good so need to determine a plan of action.
My gp has advised he will no longer prescribe them for me. He refuses due to the length of time Ive been taking them, and I am armed with a letter stating this for the appointment tomorrow.
Weve celebrated my moms 54th birthday this week - made her a cake. Nice big chocolate cake covered in Malteasers - it was divine! Well.. the smell was then after 5 mins of decorating the darn thing it was sickly.. I havnt eaten any but have been reassured it was very nice and the entire family approved.
Went to Toys R Us last weekend to get my niece a 2nd birthday present (11th April) and settled on buying her a wendy house thing made of solid plastc for the garden that was on special offer. Made my dad laugh as I was able to crouch down and shuffle init and sit down with plenty of room. The door was just about big enough for an Ewok, which means Maisy will love it, but more importantly I can sit in there with her and our disney princess tea set and Minnie Mouse and have fun too
One of the better things to happen as a result of surgery is the pleasure I get with my family. We can do more things, and its the littlest things that mean the most. theyre the most significant and I cant wait to share a cup of squash in that tea set with her
Im the proudest Aunty ever. Last year I was still in ITU and missed her 1st birthday, however this year were making up for it
Hope alls well with you guys, sorry for the insane ramblings. Take care and Ill update you more tomorrow. Fingers, eyes and ears crossed for something good, pleeeeeeeease!