Hi Nic,
flipping heck hun what a lot you have had to go through! I know you will be feeling really odd as 2 years is a long time but honestly with each day that passes it does get a little easier & you find yourself thinking about them less & less & everything really does happen for a reason & don't forget the old saying 'when one door closes another one opens' if it isn't meant to be it's best to be out of the way & put in the past to enable you to move forward & find what IS meant to be.
Keep focussing on the positives, you have done so well since surgery, it hasn't been all plain sailing but will have definately made you a stronger person, you are losing weight & getting healthier all the time, you are a lovely person, are really good looking & will have a fit bod to match soon whey hey!!
Concentrate on yourself & spoil yourself as much as you can, you deserve it!!
Love n hugs
Vicky
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