My Gastric Bypass Journey -Onwards and Upwards-Well this is a start

[mandy-1975]

Hope you're feeling a bit better today, Mandy... I should be up and about in the car in the next 10 days or so... maybe we could meet up for a coffee and share a Rich Tea?!!!

Take care

x

Hi Ols

Can't wait, will be nice............ counting down the days.........

 

[mandy-1975]

TO ALL MY FRIENDS!!!!!!

Good Morning Everyone.....

Well I just felt I need to come on and say a few things...........

Firstly I would like to give you all a huge big THANK YOU and a VERY BIG HUG!!!!!! all your support has meant alot to me....... not only with the operation but with my very own personally Journey.........:thankyou::thankyou::thankyou::thankyou::grouphugg::grouphugg::grouphugg::grouphugg:

As I have said previously it hasn't been easy but I get threw it, and yes I have had some very very dark days and you all send me special wishes which means so much......

It is like having my very own family, which is something that I am not used too..... but means a great deal.......

I constantly find it hard to cope with the rejection of my mother and father, and always think why me, am I so bad... which is one reason why I don't take compliments easy becuase if I was a nice person why does my mother hate me so much.... (thats what I say everyday) Why me? another huge issue I have is wanting revenge on the abuser(sorry can't say his name, it frightens me to much) and on the mother.....but is that the answer I dont know

It was a very hard thing to do turning my back on them, and walking away and although I crave her love I know I had to do it for my sanity(if I have any) and for the sake of my darling son.. and husband...... she was helping to self destruct...........

I will admit I find everyday a struggle to get up and LIVE but I have to do it.... I swear it is the surviour in me.........

But the one thing that does help me keep goign is all my frineds here...... you are all wonderful... and i have never ever felt the love and care that some of you have given me!!!!!!!

Somedays I can't believe that some of you talk to me, why me......I have to pinch myself.........

You are all a true inspiration to me and I have to admit you keep me going!!!!!!!!!

A special thank you to all you have been so special to me, and you all know who you are......... THANK YOU

Love you all.........

 

[alliecat]

OMG Mandy, you nearly had me in tears. You are a survivor hun and stronger than you realise. You are an inspiration to others even if you dont see it yourself. Well done on getting back in touch with the counselling group, that will be another step in the right direction to a whole new you. Just keep being you, you are doing so well in the face of adversity and we all admire you for it. One day at a time hun but just keep being you xx

 

[jackietrew]

that is great about the counselling group! and you are right, you are a survivor but also a victim in a sense, but you need to embrace your survivor side and overcome the victim side if that makes sense? you need to see yourself as strong and inspirational as you really are hun! good luck with the rest of your journey and i will be reading everyday xxx

 

[Olsbols]

Mandy... although we have never met, from your posts it's plain to see that you are a lovely, genuine and caring person who deserves to be liked and loved and happy.

Anyone who can't see that and treats you badly has only one problem... their own stupidity and ignorance.

It's probably easy for me to say as I have never been through the traumas that you have, but please don't think that the reason your mother is horrid to you is anything to do with you as a person... some people are just horrid in nature and nothing can change that.

You continue to be lovely... that way, you're the winner and you also show them that their cruelty hasn't ruined you.

Stay positive, and I hope the group gives you the support you need :hug99:

x

 

[mandy-1975]

OMG Mandy, you nearly had me in tears. You are a survivor hun and stronger than you realise. You are an inspiration to others even if you dont see it yourself. Well done on getting back in touch with the counselling group, that will be another step in the right direction to a whole new you. Just keep being you, you are doing so well in the face of adversity and we all admire you for it. One day at a time hun but just keep being you xx

Hi My Good Friend Ali
Thank you so much........... Sorry I nearly had you in tears, wasn't my intention at all!!!!!!

I really only wrote that, so I could just let you all know how much you mean to me and try and explain what goes on in my head!!!!!!! if that makes sense......

The Counselling was great and i really felt I was getting somewhere but due to funding had to stop for six months..... weird thing really.... the strangest thing is the counsellor I had was a man but it was so easy to talk to him, and the main thing is it was MY TIME something I never have time for....... hopefully i will get the same peson and it is just one to one!!!!!!!!!!!

Thank you Ali, you are are great support......

 

[mandy-1975]

that is great about the counselling group! and you are right, you are a survivor but also a victim in a sense, but you need to embrace your survivor side and overcome the victim side if that makes sense? you need to see yourself as strong and inspirational as you really are hun! good luck with the rest of your journey and i will be reading everyday xxx

I understand you completely.......... Yes I am a victim and to a certain degree always will be, but I agree I don't have to let that part of me ruin my life.........if you have msn mine is [email protected] would be nice to chat with you on there.............

 

[mandy-1975]

Mandy... although we have never met, from your posts it's plain to see that you are a lovely, genuine and caring person who deserves to be liked and loved and happy.

Anyone who can't see that and treats you badly has only one problem... their own stupidity and ignorance.

It's probably easy for me to say as I have never been through the traumas that you have, but please don't think that the reason your mother is horrid to you is anything to do with you as a person... some people are just horrid in nature and nothing can change that.

You continue to be lovely... that way, you're the winner and you also show them that their cruelty hasn't ruined you.

Stay positive, and I hope the group gives you the support you need :hug99:

x

Hi Ols

Thank you so much Hunny.............your kind words mean alot....... my head agrees with you completely, just my heart feels differently!!!!!! and alot of the time, my heart rules my head......

My problem is that I try to think common sense and say they won't win, and I am nice, but then the doubts and mothers voice far out weigh the good points - if that makes sense.......

But havign all your wonderful friendships make a huge difference to me......... love and hugs

 

[Olsbols]

I can understand, mate... just wish I could do something to help

:hug99:

x

 

[jackietrew]

thanks mandy, iv added you on msn hun, have a good chat later if you're aroundxxx

 

[Alice]

Hi Mandy,

Just wanted to give you a hug and say how lovely I think you are!
((((hug))))
Looking forward to our skinny shopping trip next year! xx

 

[mandy-1975]

Hi Thnak you so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Alice

How you feeling about your operation!!!!!!!

 

[Alice]

ok I guess Mandy... Bit miserable about it because I've not lost anywhere near as much as Livvy or Ali since the op. I saw my surgeon last night and he said I need to move onto Solid foods now and then get an early band fill done so I can get adequate restriction. I know everyone loses weight at different rates and we shouldn't compare but it's impossible not to isn't it?!

Alice xx

 

[mandy-1975]

It is very impossible not to compare................. but you have to look at how much you have lost so far........... i have literally stopped losing, my dietician says it is because my body has gone into starvation mode............. but it is hard....

 

[alliecat]

ok I guess Mandy... Bit miserable about it because I've not lost anywhere near as much as Livvy or Ali since the op. I saw my surgeon last night and he said I need to move onto Solid foods now and then get an early band fill done so I can get adequate restriction. I know everyone loses weight at different rates and we shouldn't compare but it's impossible not to isn't it?!

Alice xx

Hey Alice, you are still doing well hun. It is not a race - see how you get on with solid food - i know that now I am eating more I seem to be losing more bizarrely. chin up hun, and take your own advice about looking forward to our skinny minny shopping trip next year - keep the long term picture in mind and all will be well xxx

 

[alliecat]

Hi My Good Friend Ali
Thank you so much........... Sorry I nearly had you in tears, wasn't my intention at all!!!!!!

I really only wrote that, so I could just let you all know how much you mean to me and try and explain what goes on in my head!!!!!!! if that makes sense......

The Counselling was great and i really felt I was getting somewhere but due to funding had to stop for six months..... weird thing really.... the strangest thing is the counsellor I had was a man but it was so easy to talk to him, and the main thing is it was MY TIME something I never have time for....... hopefully i will get the same peson and it is just one to one!!!!!!!!!!!

Thank you Ali, you are are great support......

Awwww, thanks hun.. the same goes for you - you are also a true support to not just me but so many others on here. Was good to chat earlier, now going to stick my nose back in my books again I promise x

 

[shelbell]

Mandy... although we have never met, from your posts it's plain to see that you are a lovely, genuine and caring person who deserves to be liked and loved and happy.

Anyone who can't see that and treats you badly has only one problem... their own stupidity and ignorance.

It's probably easy for me to say as I have never been through the traumas that you have, but please don't think that the reason your mother is horrid to you is anything to do with you as a person... some people are just horrid in nature and nothing can change that.

You continue to be lovely... that way, you're the winner and you also show them that their cruelty hasn't ruined you.

Stay positive, and I hope the group gives you the support you need :hug99:

x

Mandy,

I can't put it any better than Ollie has, so I just want to say that I agree with all that up there

 

[mandy-1975]

Thanks Shel!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Your a star

Ali.... GET BACK TO THOSE BOOKS.... or will set teacher shel onto you

 

[alliecat]

ok boss! sorry - do I have to go in the naughty corner?

 

[mandy-1975]

no it is time out on the chair!!!!!!!!!!!!! 10 minutes........