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My Gastric Bypass Journey -Onwards and Upwards-Well this is a start

pink is nice .. however if i was to use pink i would have a feature wall with a pink and cream paper maybe big flowers ..and then i would do all other walls the cream .. and i would have the likes of pink curtains with swags .. all mirror bedside tables and draws .. big venetian mirror on the back wall ... big cream throws nice crisp pink bedding ...

That is fantastic idea............ thank you so much
 
Well morning everyone...

It is taking me a while to type as i have my hand in a sling... long story.... some of you maybe aware of my weekends events!!!!!!!!

Im ok, bit thoughtful today but wanted to thank those of you that sent me wishes.....
 
Hi everyone..... well been sat here debating wether to reply on here..... as many will know i suffer with serve depression.... and have done for a long time.... i am having a real hard time at present....

although my gp is great and I go to my own self help group, it is very hard to find much else around, or that isn't way beyond me price....

Well this weekend it all come to a head, and you could say i exploded, this ended up in my and my hubby splitting..... and me then spending hours and hours in a&e... but although it is still vrey raw for me, and my head is mixed..... i ended up have a chat with the mental health crisis team, in fact if it wasn't for the fact my friend said i could stay at hers i would of been admitted!

But i relised a few things, in the cold light of day and one of these being that yes the operation helped me loose the weight and it is great, it took my comfort away(this being food) so i did the next best thing which is alcohol, i was averging alot of booze a night.... also it made me relise i have some real issues..... i have people around me but i don't feel worthy of their love so i have tried to destroy it....

question for me is where to next!!!!!!!!! i don't know but i know i still have a long journey... i agree they should give therapy-counselling something to anyone that is thinking or having WLS...

Sorry for rambling!
 
dont know what to say mandy so I will just send a hug (((mandy)))

Hope your hand is feeling better soon. xxx
 
Mandy, Mandy, Mandy

What can I say hun ........ I wish you'd of rung me chick I'm really worried about you.

Can you not come up here for a weekend ? xxxxxx
 
Mandy, Mandy, Mandy

What can I say hun ........ I wish you'd of rung me chick I'm really worried about you.

Can you not come up here for a weekend ? xxxxxx

There isn't much you could do at that godly hour!!!!!! yes i am going to sort out coming up to you.... but will do it when you get back from hols xxxxx love ya
 
Love ya too hun, you can ring me at anytime it doesn't matter what time it is chick, just wish I lived closer and I'd be straight to see you. xxxxxxxx
 
Love ya too hun, you can ring me at anytime it doesn't matter what time it is chick, just wish I lived closer and I'd be straight to see you. xxxxxxxx

Wish you were to hunny!!!!!!!!!! can just feel that hug..... feeling very alone at moment but you know me i'll get there, what time is your appointment today
 
Mandy, I'm sending you a big hig too. You know we're always here for you and I'm glad you told us. When you come up, I want to see you too and to give you a really supportive hug too.

I know how easy it is to swap food for alcohol. I've been drinking a lot more since the bypass and only noticed when a few things happened: local shop ran out of my wine, which I seem to be the only one who buys it, and I felt drunk one morning!! It's quite scary but so easy to
swap one comforter for another.

You need to surround yourself with people who will give you the TLC and support that you deserve. Remember I'm only a phonecall away too. With Gordon recovering from his op I'm home for today and tomorrow at least so ring anytime.
 
Sounds like one hell of a weekend Mandy! Hope you can get through things and get some support from the doctors etc too x
 
Mandy, I'm sending you a big hig too. You know we're always here for you and I'm glad you told us. When you come up, I want to see you too and to give you a really supportive hug too.

I know how easy it is to swap food for alcohol. I've been drinking a lot more since the bypass and only noticed when a few things happened: local shop ran out of my wine, which I seem to be the only one who buys it, and I felt drunk one morning!! It's quite scary but so easy to
swap one comforter for another.

You need to surround yourself with people who will give you the TLC and support that you deserve. Remember I'm only a phonecall away too. With Gordon recovering from his op I'm home for today and tomorrow at least so ring anytime.

Thank you hun!!!! does mean alot....... i think deep down i knew the alcohol was a big thing, but didn't want to face it.... but I have cleared out all the alcohol and am ready to fight I think, well thats the mode for today, at present i am taking it step by step and hour by hour......

A very good lady on here told me to start writing my feelings down, and leaving it around so Paul could read it, as i do find it hard to talk to him and explain what i am feeling, so i have treadted myself to a book and i am going to start it.... can you believe it the cover says Thoughts!!!!!!!!

Thing is I DON'T BELIEVE I AM LOVABLE or even LIKEABLE... i think that is goign to be one of the huge factors to deal with, although it may not seem it but it is part and parcel of the wls journey..... because i can't hide from food i have got to face things.....

the only down side is unless i can pay for therepy to help me move forward i don't know how i can do it..... it is far to expensive..... yes gp is good but as he says he isn't trained in this work!!!!

Thank you for your support.... your a star love you....

How is Gordon getting onxxxxxx
 
Trying for the first day!!!!!!!

Well Good Morning All

Firstly I would like to apologise for being so b***** Miserable at moment.... :cry::cry::cry:and Thank you all so much for your support.....:thankyou::thankyou:

Yesterday I went online and printed of loads of helpful information..... :fear::fear:

Then I went home and had a chat with Paul, and I have decided that today is a fresh new day, and I know I can't block out how I feel but hopefully I can work threw this... I have recongised areas that I am having problems and areas that I need to work on...

The Confidence and loving or even liking myself bit is bit to hard, I have started writing in my book and at present have two books on the go... one is at home and one I plan to carry around with me so I can write when I feel I have too and need too.....

One step at a time...... I had also been reading Thailine posts on the 5 day pouch test, and I will be giving that a go....

At one point I thought everyone would be sick of me.... and was it anything to really do with food, but I have relised it is part of the reason.... the no longer being able to comfort eat has affected me, so whilst it may not be good reading I am trying to be true to myself.....:ashamed0005::ashamed0005::ashamed0005::ashamed0005::ashamed0005:

THank you all for your support, it means alot......xxxxx:thankyou::thankyou::thankyou:

And one last thing :grouphugg::grouphugg::grouphugg::needhug::needhug:
 
hi chick, we are not just here for you when you r food demons we are here for anything you need us to be. The support on here is unconditional. You are right your security blanket of food is no longer there, but you have a bigger security blanket in us minis. There is normally always someone about even if we have no advice a problem shared is a problem halved. There are many people who will understand where you are coming from and your relationship with food. I for one no that I am going to struggle whn things arn't going to plan and I can't eat myself better. You keep posting girl it seems to be helping as you seem a lot brighter this morning.

You have my mobile number and you know where I am if you need to chat, don't be afraid to pm or send me an email, I am on here most of the time lol.

Take one thing at a time and you will get there here is the biggest hug coming your way :gen126: :hug99:
 
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