new beginnings

[Anna1980]

Hi Tracey sorry your having a rubbish time I'm sure you can get back on it and have some good results, I'm doing ok need to keep am eye on my portions though as over did it yesterday and had a really uncomfortable night so have only had liquids today,
It gave me quite a scare as iv been reading a few post where things have gone wrong mainly due to not following the rules,I have rubbish will power but need to find some as can't afford any more operations and need to make the most of this opportunity it could be the only one I get xx

 

[traceyb79]

Hi Anna

I think I need to get into your mindset as well. X

Are you feeling in control at the moment x

 

[Anna1980]

Hi Tracey physically I'm in control it's the naughty rebellious anna in my head I'm finding hard to deal with, think it's the bordem of not being at work is making it worse.
Think I'm realising that everything I used to do revolved around food is shopping trips,birthday celebrations on my days off normally I take mom out for a drive and end up out for dinner, yesterday proved I need to make a lot more changes on a plus it's cheaper lol xx

 

[traceyb79]

I think I just thought it would be a bit easier than it is but I'm not spending the time on my band and I know that's the problem. I am going to sit down tomorrow and write a meal plan. It's almost as though I have forgotten how to eat healthy as I am normally on a diet or in binge mode.

How did the interview go?

 

[Anna1980]

Hi Tracey, interview went well I think but I won't know till next week,I have another one Monday so fingers and toes crossed,
I think your right about the meal planning I have just had a read of THG book again to check what I can have next week, are you looking forward to Sunday? Xx

 

[squirl]

Hi Anna, glad the interview went well, hope you get some good news next week, if not from that one then the Monday interview

 

[Anna1980]

Thanks louise how did yours go? Xx

 

[squirl]

I think it was ok, they said they'd let me know by the end of next week. I've just got to work out if I want it now if it's offered to me, it's quite a pay cut, less leave and sick pay and it would hit my pension quite badly. They do seem like lovely people though. I'm so confused!

 

[Anna1980]

Oh god that's a hard decision then, but happiness is so much more important I'm worried about if I get offered a job I'll have to do the 6 month probation thing and feel like a temp till its passed,but you know what we ain't been offered the joys yet so let's not stress till we have I think we have had enough to stress about this month hun lol xx

 

[squirl]

Of course you're right Anna, I'm just over-thinking everything (as usual). Hadn't even thought about a probation period though...

 

[Anna1980]

Lol try and relax and think about your food diary to take your mind of things xx

 

[Anna1980]

Well almost five weeks post op and feeling good, iv even been swimming today but think I need to invest in a new costume as I had to keep pulling the bottoms up but that's a good sign, my scars have turned purple now too and one has almost disappeared I still can't believe I have had it done, just going to plan my weeks food so that I can be good as I don't have my first fill till 13th xx

 

[traceyb79]

I'm so glad you are feeling good and you sound so positive x

 

[Anna1980]

Thanks Tracey how are you doing? Xx

 

[traceyb79]

I am actually loving the liquids and not having to think too much about what to eat. X

Are you back at work now? If so how has it been x

 

[Anna1980]

Aww that's good Tracey I'm back at work and dreading it,I didn't get the job I went fir Friday as they decided that they need someone till 6pm and I can't do it due to after school club finishes at 6 so feeling crap iv just had some ice-cream to make me feel even more crap xx

 

[Anna1980]

Meant to say I'm back at work tomorrow xx

 

[squirl]

I'm so sorry you didn't get the job Anna, hopefully you'll get the one you had the interview for today

 

[Anna1980]

Hi louise not sure about the one today either as they wasn't sure about what hours they needed someone to cover and sounded more like accounts than payroll, have you heard anything yet? Xx

 

[traceyb79]

Oh sorry to hear that hon x a little bit if ice cream is ok as long as it's not a tub lol

It's so hard finding part time work isn't it.

Did you say you have other interviews as well.