Fee that sounds really interesting !
It was my support team who put the addiction word in my head actually .. I had never thought of food that way before .. I just thought food was so pleasurable and made me feel calm and comforted .. The lure of a pot of Ben and Jerry's is still extremely strong some days let me tell you , but I now know it's a drug .. Plain and simple .. It's my drug of choice along with anything sweet , high in fat , carbs , crunch , sweet and salty .. It's all my drug of choice like heroin is to a druggy ..
It's just that these drugs are everywhere and acceptable ..
Look at donuts , covered in beautiful pink or chocolate icing , lovely on the eye and they taste so sweet and the texture is sublime .. But eating one isn't enough is it .. I would buy 4 if I was feeling holy that day , 10 if I was staying on my bed for the day watching a film .. And isn't it easy to just shove one in your face , not a dainty bite , just a damn great mouthful that you don't even really chew , but swallow quickly so you can get another one in your mouth ..
I can't have just one scoop of ice cream , and I find it strange and bizarre when I hear someone has had an open pot of ice cream in the freezer for a long time .. I'd devour that tub in 10 mins flat and be reaching for another if I had one ..
That's how addicted I am to bad foods ..
I cannot go back to even a bite because I'm scared I will get out of control again
On the face book forum I see some of them saying that we have to live , that not eating certain foods isn't practical or real life .. That we all need ' treats ' .. I can't think of those foods as treats any more , they are my addictions
Some are still drinking .. A drink of wine to me triggers eating , does it you ? One glass at the pub a few weeks ago sent me spiralling into 2 bags of salty peanuts without a thought .. One after the other , I couldn't stop ..
So now I know about alcohol being another trigger ..
I admire people who can control what they eat , stick to 4 squares of chocolate and half a slice of cake .. I can't ..
So it's easier , or getting easier , for me to steer clear of those foods and be so strict with myself or I know I will fail and come off the wagon big time ..
You'd find me locked in a broom cupboard with my ice cream , donuts , crisps , bread and chocolate , snarling at you and daring you to try and take it from me lol !
I might just get this book next week and see if it makes sense ..
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