All booked and now on that road of no return

[puddytats]

I find it an interesting concept. I certainly do find food an addiction, and this, in part, is driven by food intolerances. A long time ago I mentioned to my social worker that I couldn't eat a slice of bread - it was always the entire loaf. She asked me to give up wheat for a week and I did. Withdrawal was horrendous and it was ONLY wheat. My mental health did improve a little in that time. I then went to a specialist in food intolerances and my mental health improved from then on! I've also seen it in other people

And yes, sugar withdrawal has been likened to heroin withdrawal and by the specialist too. I know I feel so, so rough if I come off sugar, that now, with no incentive of the improved moved and functioning, I cannot keep it up. But that's another story, lol!

 

[Tracey]

I understand completely everything you've said above ...
But I've worked it that if I want something I'm going to have a little bit of it ...
For instance my sleeve will not let me eat 6/8 bags of crisps with a packet of Jacobs and 4 different blocks of cheese topped off with 3 bottles of wine ... and a family bag of giant Cadbury buttons ....

But my sleeve will allow ....6 wotsits 2 Jacobs crackers with a slice of cheese on and 4 chocolate buttons
I have had to have a little of what I fancy or I would end up going mad ... we can't avoid food forever and I was told I'm not on a diet....
I don't count calories and have changed my eating habits dramatically ...
I have brown rice and halloumi in my house lol ....
I still haven't eaten bread 12 weeks out and I'm trying not to its my biggest downfall but I will eventually
It's so hard for us all and we're all fighting our own demons ...
Have a lovely day I'm off to have a banana xxx

 

[Crystalrainbow]

hmmm interesting lol as you know i have the same theory re the addiction ..... like you Mindy i decided nothing was the best way forward, i did allow a small choc treat tho the head stuff is pretty real and the wrong foods for me like Fee are rooted in the past and are very much for comfort, i thought i'd slayed that dragon but here i am fighting it all again....i allowed these 'drugs' back into my life to comfort in my lowest hour .... ok which wasn't wise BUT every day now its a struggle to keep away and begin a detox..... every morning i wake and say 'today' lol so far so good today maybe the food intolerance is thrown in there too..... my cravings are always for the food that harm me too....my kryptonite ...... i shall be looking out for this book too.....anything that helps explain the head set is worth having....... sometimes it helps to know why we do what we do rather than going along mindlessly wishing you peeps all a wonderful day..... may we see some sunshine too...... x x x x x x Mindy your garden is beautiful x x x

 

[Sunshine99]

I'm glad you found it interesting. From what I can tell she says to identify 'trigger' food and cut those out completely.

I don't feel I am addicted to food. I had a very dysfunctional relationship with food for various reasons a large part of which is rooted in neglect and abuse in childhood. Food was routinely denied and then forced on me. I have spent a long time in therapy working through this. I haven't cut out any food because it's not the food itself that causes me to eat too much it's the emotional stuff going on and that's how my distress expressed itself. Interestingly when I was severely restricting my food to a dangerous level back in my late teens to early 20's I would end up eating if I drank too much and that was the only time I eat. I haven't drunk for a long time now in large part because my brain surgeon told me it would raise my risk of becoming very seriously ill again and also because it interacts with a lot of my medications.

Referring to food as an addiction tends to divide mental health professionals because unlike illicit drugs or alcohol we do need to eat in order to live as your GP said @nafpnd . Professionally (I work in mental health) I work with whatever the person themselves feel is true for them. I have read more than once that sugar is as addictive as heroin for example so I can see why people make the link.

So for me I can manage to have a couple of squares of chocolate and not have the urge to eat a whole huge bar of it. For you it feels safer not to even touch certain foods. I don't think either of us are wrong or right, we are just individuals

Hi @FeeHutch , I can totally understand the 'routinely denied food, then forced on me' bit. It was 'all' or 'nothing'....and i had no control over that. And, I had abuse in my childhood too. Sadly, it seems all too common in people with 'dysfunctional' eating patterns, or eating disorders/addictions.
Interesting...i never really looked at wether i was an 'addict' or had a 'disorder' ...suppose ive always gone with the disorder, because thats what ive been diagnosed with in the past. But on thinking about it...i do think im an 'addict' to sugar. As outside the binges i eat reasonably healthy. I can connect quite well with Countrywench, in the way she describes her 'addiction' to sugars.
Toni

 

[countrywench]

Wore a new to out to the cinema today .. Had it in the wardrobe for a month or so and it was a little snug on me , it's a size 24 ( I was 28/30 ) .. Put it on this morning to go shopping and it's fits beautifully .. Very well cut with a peplum type bottom on it .. Didn't look at myself in the mirror , as usual , and just went out .. At the cinema I had to pop in the loo and it has a full length mirror which made me stop dead in my tracks ..
My first thought was that it wasn't me ..
Then I thought the mirror was being extremely kind like some of them can do . But it dawned on me just how much my shape has changed over the last month or so .. My waist has pinched in , my thighs have lost about a fifth of the bulk , my shoulders now show a collar bone ! I came out of the loo with the biggest shit eating grin on my face
Hubby asks what I'm grinning about so I say , come and get a bit of me .. His arms go right round me with some room to spare and I can cuddle right into him .. Bloody amazing ..
Even though I'm around the 21st mark the change is so amazing .. I actually looked trim ..
This was the top and next time I wear it will get a pic .. It's so flattering on ..

 

[countrywench]

The addiction thing is very interesting isn't it .. I've had that thought in my head for a few weeks now ..
I'm so sorry Fee and sunshine about your younger life .. I can't even begin to walk in your shoes but you both seem very together if that's the right word ..
Crystal ! It's so good to see you back in here . Truly it is .. I asked in another thread if you would now consider having that fill on your band ? It just might be the helping hand you need ..
Arnt we all amazing women !
Xxxx

 

[Sunshine99]

Wore a new to out to the cinema today .. Had it in the wardrobe for a month or so and it was a little snug on me , it's a size 24 ( I was 28/30 ) .. Put it on this morning to go shopping and it's fits beautifully .. Very well cut with a peplum type bottom on it .. Didn't look at myself in the mirror , as usual , and just went out .. At the cinema I had to pop in the loo and it has a full length mirror which made me stop dead in my tracks ..
My first thought was that it wasn't me ..
Then I thought the mirror was being extremely kind like some of them can do . But it dawned on me just how much my shape has changed over the last month or so .. My waist has pinched in , my thighs have lost about a fifth of the bulk , my shoulders now show a collar bone ! I came out of the loo with the biggest shit eating grin on my face
Hubby asks what I'm grinning about so I say , come and get a bit of me .. His arms go right round me with some room to spare and I can cuddle right into him .. Bloody amazing ..
Even though I'm around the 21st mark the change is so amazing .. I actually looked trim ..
This was the top and next time I wear it will get a pic .. It's so flattering on ..

Im so pleased your starting to notice the positive changes in your shape, its a great feeling getting into clothes, that at one time never fitted. At my biggest i was a 28...although it was a tight 28...because i could'nt bare asking for a 30. I was a 30 in reality. It's strange...why wasn't i bothered about asking for a 22,24,26.....I suppose i felt 28 was my limit...my body was struggling. Not sure what size i am at mo...as i wear elasicated waists still! And XXXL mens sports t-shirts most of the time. That top is lovely though. Im a fan of Yours clothing, which replaced Evens where i live.
Your doing great!
Toni

 

[FeeBee]

It's great when you feel like that isn't it?
When I took my first lot of in the doorway comparison pictures a couple of weeks ago the front facing one I could see a decent bit of a difference since April but the side on one looked unbelievably different I couldn't stop staring! We see ourselves all the time which is why we don't always notice the changes I think and then every so often it suddenly clicks
First time round I joined slimming world when I hit a size 20 because I was mortified I was so big and was dressing in tents to try and hide (like that works!) This time I am all shit eating grins too. Funny how perspective changes

And thank you. I am pretty together these days but it has been a long road to get here. In a lot of ways being so ill was a good thing because it forced me to reassess what I wanted and how I treated myself. It's hard to hate a body that's beaten the odds a couple of times now. I definitely feel WLS was the best choice I could make to start caring for myself x

 

[countrywench]

Well .. I've waited all week to go weigh myself properly on the Boots scales and ... They are broken ! Wahhaaaa ! I was excited to get a print out to show you girls but it can't be helped .. My scales at home, weigh me within 2 lbs of Boots now so I know I have had a massive weight loss
It just goes to show that taking it right back to basics can and does work ..
So after not losing for 3 weeks and even going up and down by 2lbs I am ecstatic !
As you can see in the pic , the tickets from Boots , the one last week I screwed up in anger and threw in a public bin lol ! But then thought I'd better keep it so had to go back and dig the bugger out ..
So , I will take a pic of the scales tomorrow morning before I go to work and post it
But this morning , my home scales say I am .... 20st 7lbs A rediculous loss of about 9lbs !
It's so awesome I cannot even put it into words .. I have smashed my 5st loss ..
I'm sat in my fav coffe#1 with my banana porridge and a small latte trying my best not cry while I type this .. I'm that happy and amazed at myself ..
5 stone .. 70lbs .. 32 kilos ... Gone ..
God bless modern medicine is all I can say ...

 

[starryeyed]

Jeez what the heck have you eaten this week? What kind of basics I need me a loss like that haha. Well done lovely awesome work Xxx

 

[countrywench]

It's totally cutting back on the foods that have been creeping back into my mouth .. Carbs being the main one ..
This is my food diary for the last week .. It might not be the best foods , but I have no interest in cooking at this time , plus my oven door is bloody broken ! I've not a real interest in any food to be honest at the mo, nothing I really crave apart for last night I suddenly had this overwhelming need for chocolate , not had that since I stated my journey so it was out of the blue .. Hubby came to the rescue with a choc Options drink ! Hit the spot right on target
Actually looking at this food diary you can see I eat a lot of protein ..

 

[starryeyed]

Thank you what are boodles xxx

 

[puddytats]

well done !!

 

[FeeBee]

I wish I could like it more than once, that's bloody awesome!

 

[countrywench]

Thank you what are boodles xxx

Butternut squash made into noodles .. Sainsburys sell them a big packer which feeds me for 2 meals for £1.50 I think .. Delicious ! Same as courgette noodles .. They sell them also .. Use them instead of pasta ..

 

[SUNSHINE]

Well done. You are doing great

 

[Sunshine99]

@countrywench ,

A bloody huge WELL DONE!

 

[Tracey]

 

[beepbeepcat]

Whoooooooooo

 

[Crystalrainbow]

WOoooooooohoooooo sweetheart keep on smashing it hun x x x x x