Hi guys ! So sorry I've been missing .. my iPad was messing about and then I got that damn flu etc etc ..
I'm ok ..
At beginning of Dec I had lost my 7st .. the lead up to Xmas i found extremely tempting to say the least ! I felt those old bad habits taking hold of me .. all that beautiful Xmas packaging on the bad foods .. like an old lover calling my name ..
I ate 6 mince pies in one sitting with a latte
.. I just couldn't stop , no matter what my head was saying inside , the hands just kept feeding the mouth .. I didn't eat anything else that day as I was disgusted with myself ...
I make a food hamper up for my girls at Xmas , something I've always done since they left home .. full of homemade goodies and spent Xmas at mybyoungests house ..
This year I made Black Forest Gateaux.. Mary Berrys recipe .. omg it's so good ! So that was another trouble maker in my life .. Xmas eve I had a small slice , felt ok .. But xmas morning I woke early thinking of the gateau! Seriously drooling on my pillow .. and I crept through the house and sat in the silence with a big piece of it , eating it like a thief ! Washed and dried the bowl and put it away so no one would know .. WTF !
In company over the Xmas period , when I've been out with friends and family I eat for my band and behave perfectly.. A true angel with my halo band .. But when alone I've been seriously fighting old addictions ..
Xmas has knocked me for 6 to be honest .. Alcohol has been consumed also ...
I put on 6lbs in total and once I got past New Year's Eve I then laid low with that damn flue thingy .. again , that made me want comfort food .. A hug from 10 biscuits went down my throat , along with a large piece of cheesecake .. and then stew and cheesy dumplings ! All those foods your body cries for when your not feeling well ..
Its taken me a few weeks to get my head together to be honest .. I've spent the last week or so seriously fighting with myself ..
I've not gone of the rails badly I feel .. but I've definitely derailed a little ..
I belong to a group on Facebook as well and someone posted .. Why do we treat food as a treat ?
Isn't that a good question .. why ? Why when we've lost a few pounds do we say to ourselves ' I've done well this week I can have a tub of ice cream as a treat ' .. so why do we reward ourself with the very thing that's making us miserable ...
Laughable really isn't it .. we don't reward children for bad behaviour, so why do we reward ourself as an adult ?
Anyway , I've managed to drop the weight I've put on and I'm back to dead on 7st loss .. .. I'm back on track and writing everything down and steering clear of bad food .. easier now that the Xmas marketing has gone from the shelves !
I'm hoping to hit the massive 100lbs loss next week !