BandedHuns Mad Fat Diary

[sparklysue]

Hey Sue! How are u what happened?

It's so lovely to hear from people who I spoke to early on... Last stone? Yes sue go for it!!! You can do it. If you can just manage 1.5lbs per week Xmas 2014 will be the you at your goal... And hey what a present to yourself.

Trust me though it's had its ups and downs, but on a whole I cannot believe the me I've become. I wondered a lot to myself if I would always hate me or was it just because I was an overweight ugly woman... But I tried the band ( I often at times I struggled read my first three pages over and over ... Just trying to remember Y I started this expensive journey) ... It always helps to remember Y we do it and how low we were when we started. It's great going to all the shops I could only have dreamed off but when it gets hard - that last stone, that when we have to see the beginning again and see how far we come and how WE CAN and WILL succeed getting to where we WANT to be because that's why we sort these tools... We can have our ups downs our stalls... We are bloody humN beings, and who EVER said life was never gonna give us chocolate hula hoops ( which have been discussed recently ;-) .. ) of course these things are allowed... Only in moderation and NOT for abuse purposes! That's a MUST just to be kind to our new delicate womanly bodies.

Sue I have every faith you can do this. Hola ANYTIME there are a great bunch of banders here and we are all learning, making our mistakes and working together to become who we want to be.... You too!!! ;-)

Just for your information i don't hate myself anymore, I hated me who was a good addict. Who was hooked on the diet purge cycle... I hated that I felt lost and out of control... Now my life's for living and Id never change it for the world , even though I've been poorly and stressed with my career etc... I still love who I'm becoming and live the fact I can pay it forward to so many who doubt themselves , who felt like I did, worthless... Do it sweetie... And do it for you!!! Xxx

Aww thanks BandedHun

I can see in your photos how happy you look. You have changed your life and look amazing.

Don't worry, I am back in the right frame of mind now and more determined than ever to shift this weight.

I feel so much better even losing 2 stone but know how I used to feel a lot smaller and I want to get there again, but stay there this time.

xxxxxx

 

[BandedHun]

**** DRESS PHOTOS!!!!! *****

So I got the dress photos . It's an size 8 it's not great pictures because it's not done tight in my back as I need the waist pulled in a couple of centimetres and the hips an inch and half taken off then the top can be done up tighter... So my chest looks even saggier in these pictures. But seeing the dress I never realised how boney I was up top.... Eeeek.

So no make up or hair and the back still needs sorting but you get the idea .... It's lace and crystal over lay and not sure of the material underneath. The strap is detachable and I just need to decide if I want the sleeve strap or not.... Opinions?

 

[BandedHun]

Side with strap

 

[BandedHun]

Other side and strap

 

[BandedHun]

Front no strap

 

[BandedHun]

Side no strap
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[kurstywursty]

Are you showing us your actual wedding dress Banded? God mine was a huge secret lol

It is a gorgeous dress. I myself, prefer it without the strap xxx

 

[emmahc1975]

No strap but looks fab with too

 

[Bear]

I think I prefer no strap as well. Looks goregous though.

 

[sparklysue]

Stunning. No strap xx

 

[SingerMo]

Absolutely gorgeous. I like both. If you're gonna dance hard at the reception you might want the strap lol

 

[BandedHun]

Yes gorlies this is the dress. Just having the alterations done. There are buttons on the strap so it can come off. I'm gonna decide on the day with my hair and neck wear and tiara flowers etc wether the strap to stay or not. It's £2200. I need to pay it off in chunks so hence getting it early ...

It is lovely and the pictures are not great but you get the idea. Once the backs done I'll take back pictures so u can see how small it all is.

So exciting, just got the pictures to keep me motivated and look back.


Do you girls think I need to start toning my arms and Chevy? And does anyone know if I do this everyday for the next year will it improve my breasts or not? Also so we think im too boney ? Or ok? Honestly I really don't mind the criticism .... XXXX

 

[sharon2014]

Aw your gorgeous in it!!

I agree no strap!

Xx

 

[Xenia67]

Fantastic pictures, I like both styles, the strap gives a certain style. Nothing wrong with you arms at all x

 

[kurstywursty]

I think you look pretty toned. Remember I asked you if you worked out?

But.....if it would make you feel better on your big day, get to the gym girl!

Dress is really gorgeous...good idea to decide on the day re the strap. How you do your hair might influence how you feel

You are just beautiful and would look amazing in a bin bag xxxx

 

[kurstywursty]

Oh. As for too bony...is that even possible???? Lol

This coming from a girl who just can't wait to get collar bones

 

[WeightlossDreamer]

I think you look really toned already! I prefer with strap but obvs it will also depend on what your going to do with your hair etc x x

 

[WeightlossDreamer]

You getting all excited about your wedding made me think of mine x x

 

[sharon2014]

Aw dreamer that's gorg pic as well xx

 

[BandedHun]

Ahhh girls thanks. That's with greasy pony tail. Just replying in the bath with a glass of rose to celebrate half term and no school run. Gosh, I jus think there is a point where you can look not as good and u went into this band thinking I'd like a size 12 and virtually everything ( Barr bloody primark sizing is an 8/10 im on) and BEVER in my dreams did I believe that would be me. I guess what I want is a body I can maintain for life and if it so happens it's a size 8 then wow. I dropped 6 dress sizes . I don't want to be going up and down ever again. So I kunda need to cut the weight loss now so it doesn't get any smaller ( to be honest I never thought my bone structure could get to an 8!!) just goes to show what the fat hides.... Like I said in the start of my diary in March I was theray funny bubly friend. Not the skinny pretty one! Crazy. I just don't see myself that way. I guess that's why I never really where make up unless it's a night out.

So some home truths. When I married my daughters dad at the tender age of 21 I had been being abused sexually by his brother in law. This crazily was the start of my diarist we to get fat again after loosing weight. It scares me ( and still to this day that men all of a sudden give u attention because you become this slimmer blonde woman) y wasn't i getting the attention at a soze 18 but it's ok now for guys to think that they can touch you, abide u, almost have u because now your a size 10 or what I was on my first marriage. It frightened me. I wanted to loose weight but was scared of what else would happen staying that way. It's that that when I did CBT came out as the underline reason for my bungee purge YOYO cycle. Hence why one I went into the police and two why I got together with a huge doorman. ( yes it's caused issues and work and hence why I'm going thru hell with my career now) but the truth had to come out someday. Now just feels the right time to open up to strangers ... There might be one other woman out there who had been abused by a close family member / friend / stranger who is scared of this journey because of who they become. I digress. Anyway my whole point is now, I'm not scared to be slim. I don't want to wear make up to impress I wear it to go out. I want to be slim and walk away from my demons but I'm so frightened it will come back to haunt me again. . For the rest of the story my bro in law lost his job, got prosecuted till the police dropped it as not in the public interest the day before he was due to plead guilty and I divorced u husband after only 3 months marriage. I was a single mum at 21 with a full time careens the job only took more and more of my self este with it. Constant abuse and bullying from other females and bosses at work. All I wanted to do was get on and help genuine people who were victims and now 10 years in I'm walking away in the new year and this is new stress. But with the wedding, the new little house we are moving on. My other half is no longer a doorman and is happily employed in the tail industry we have our ups and downs but he protects me 100% and supports me. He looks after me too when I need a self este boost. .... I guess s the whole point of home truths is to put it out there and if others choose pro judge you... Tattoos, weight, looks careers then I guess they haven't learnt the value of being Human .. Z we all mess up. We all mistakes and although the the ice burg on top may be small what's underneath goes so my deeper.

Have a great evening my beauty's xxxx <3