Help!!!!

[ceecie74]

This week I've been adding puy lentils to beef and chicken casseroles, eating plenty of beans, baked fish and have stopped relying on high fat cheese for protein. I've also quit mash and bulking food up with the lentils.

I write my daily intake on the bypass food diary every day, take a look x

 

[ceecie74]

Well done on that illicit 2lb loss lilac . You are doing fabulously and give me hope

Ceecie I think you are so right. It comes off rapidly at first but once your down to the last few stones it becomes way harder. Fingers crossed too that your dreams get fulfilled hun xx

Thanks Frankie. I'm not totally sure what my dreams are to be honest. It seems to rely on the amount of weight I lose, if that makes sense? X

 

[femfrankie]

Perfect sense ceecie x

 

[Lilacglittergirl]

Thanks Frankie. I'm not totally sure what my dreams are to be honest. It seems to rely on the amount of weight I lose, if that makes sense? X

I know exactly what you mean. From early December to this week, having not lost a lb I thought my WL journey had finished. Not that I was unhappy as in that time my body shape had dropped two sizes even if the scales hadn't. I was at the weight I was 20 years ago when I lost the same amount in nine months on diet pills and self-starvation. So to get a second wind this week and lose 4lbs in as many days ... Clearly I'm not at the end of the road ... So the prospect of weighing less than I have since I was 12 years old is very unknown territory. Yikes! I have no experience of being an under 12 stone adult ... I guess like you Ceecie, I have never set a goal and have had to be prepared (since first meeting with my provider) to go where it takes me. It freaked me out at the time when he said eleven stone - and as it gets nearer I'm still freaking but not in a negative way if that makes sense.

Onwards and downwards, ladies. Us bunch of losers

xxx

 

[2nd timer]

I know exactly what you mean. From early December to this week, having not lost a lb I thought my WL journey had finished. Not that I was unhappy as in that time my body shape had dropped two sizes even if the scales hadn't. I was at the weight I was 20 years ago when I lost the same amount in nine months on diet pills and self-starvation. So to get a second wind this week and lose 4lbs in as many days ... Clearly I'm not at the end of the road ... So the prospect of weighing less than I have since I was 12 years old is very unknown territory. Yikes! I have no experience of being an under 12 stone adult ... I guess like you Ceecie, I have never set a goal and have had to be prepared (since first meeting with my provider) to go where it takes me. It freaked me out at the time when he said eleven stone - and as it gets nearer I'm still freaking but not in a negative way if that makes sense.

Onwards and downwards, ladies. Us bunch of losers

xxx

I can't remember ever being under 12 stone either! Can you ceecie? Well done lilac

previous bander, now awaiting by pass or sleeve this year.

 

[femfrankie]

I can remember being 11st after losing 6st rather bulimicly over a couple of years. I was 17 but it all seemed rather false at the time as I just didn't feel 11st and it was all rather short lived like all my crazy diets!

 

[ceecie74]

I love being a loser Lilac!

I can only remember being 14 stone. My parents decided to put me on a diet, I was 13yrs. I had to stand on the scales in front of the entire family and then go running around the village with my dad wearing a dustbin liner (to make me sweat more). I think my Dad gave up on me after 2 runs......he was a military man and couldn't cope with the lack of enthusiasm!!!

After that I put a stone on per year. I used to steal money out of my Mums purse and sneak to the shop. I remember eating 5,6,7 chocolate bars whilst sitting on the pavement outside the shop and then going home like nothing had happened. I don't remember being unhappy....but I must have been, I did it nearly every day for a few years. I wonder why the shopkeeper never mentioned it to my parents.....

 

[chrisa]

Aww Ceecie those WERE young and innocent days sometimes what our parents did for our best made matters worse like eat it all up clean your plate, old habits n learned habits are difficult to break after years of sekf abuse to our bodies our ops help but our head still need to be dealt with I have no magic answers I never stole the cash but can remember doing similar things. WE do that kind of thing when we are pushed into doing something we are not ready to comit to. This njourney was a long time coming for me I was 45 when I had the op am now 48 and was 43 when I set out. I still have issues from my food eating past. I have eaten healthy for years now however portion control was a big issue for me. But my head tells me when I should be eating not my body. My body gives me some signs but nothing like it used to if that makes sense? I think it gets harder especially when ya weight loss stops, its forever some days its a lot to take in xxx That's why these groups are so important xx

 

[nicola1723]

I love being a loser Lilac! I can only remember being 14 stone. My parents decided to put me on a diet, I was 13yrs. I had to stand on the scales in front of the entire family and then go running around the village with my dad wearing a dustbin liner (to make me sweat more). I think my Dad gave up on me after 2 runs......he was a military man and couldn't cope with the lack of enthusiasm!!! After that I put a stone on per year. I used to steal money out of my Mums purse and sneak to the shop. I remember eating 5,6,7 chocolate bars whilst sitting on the pavement outside the shop and then going home like nothing had happened. I don't remember being unhappy....but I must have been, I did it nearly every day for a few years. I wonder why the shopkeeper never mentioned it to my parents.....

How humiliating! No wonder you ate in secret xx

 

[2nd timer]

Ceecie Amazing how our heads turn to food when others best intentions cause us emotional grief . I had two brothers dying of cf all my childhood and I was pushed from piller to post as parents so busy with them. I comfort ate. When I was a teen school decided I was too fat to eat with my friends and chose my school diners. I was put on the fat table with fat kids n made to eat away from friends n get humiliated by bullies. I had to be told what I could and could not eat and was refused a pudding and made to eat fruit. This scarred me so much like you, I ate in secret anywhere I could get my kicks from. Then I was banned from eating lunch at school because I didn't lose enough.
This I'm positive started my comfort eating to this day ;(
Luckily my children are slim and I offer them a very healthy diet and encouragement to exercise.
When I left school I became a police cadet and got super fit n could run half a marathon with mountain boots on. So encouragement is crucial, then we want to succeed. This group s so important to those if us who need support and encouragement.

previous bander, now awaiting by pass or sleeve this year.

 

[femfrankie]

Awwww Ceecie your childhood mirrors mine. Important thing is not to let those days rule our lives any more. Our parents made mistakes lets not make them ours hun xxx

 

[ceecie74]

Awwww Ceecie your childhood mirrors mine. Important thing is not to let those days rule our lives any more. Our parents made mistakes lets not make them ours hun xxx

Oh I don't Frankie. I love my parents dearly and they support me in all my endeavours! They have no idea I have regrets about my childhood and relationship with food. I don't think I need to tell them as I know they only ever did what they thought was best for me. Xxx

 

[ceecie74]

Aww Ceecie those WERE young and innocent days sometimes what our parents did for our best made matters worse like eat it all up clean your plate, old habits n learned habits are difficult to break after years of sekf abuse to our bodies our ops help but our head still need to be dealt with I have no magic answers I never stole the cash but can remember doing similar things. WE do that kind of thing when we are pushed into doing something we are not ready to comit to. This njourney was a long time coming for me I was 45 when I had the op am now 48 and was 43 when I set out. I still have issues from my food eating past. I have eaten healthy for years now however portion control was a big issue for me. But my head tells me when I should be eating not my body. My body gives me some signs but nothing like it used to if that makes sense? I think it gets harder especially when ya weight loss stops, its forever some days its a lot to take in xxx That's why these groups are so important xx

I totally get that Chrisa! I worked 5 nights per week for years and used to panic if I didn't have lots of food for the night. I tricked myself into thinking I needed sugar around 4am, as my levels were low!! What was I doing?! Lol
I feel my head has done a 360 degree turn. It now looks at food with distrust and I have to argue why I need to even eat anything!! I'm trying to focus on protein and my supplements, because I feel safe eating it. Everything else is deemed the enemy for the time being. Still not a healthy attitude towards food....I think I may need to do some psychotherapy work in the future so that I can get rid of all negative thoughts surrounding food.

The brain is a complex muscle, but I will unpick it all and look forward to a more balanced attitude in the future . This is just the beginning for me x

 

[ceecie74]

Ceecie Amazing how our heads turn to food when others best intentions cause us emotional grief . I had two brothers dying of cf all my childhood and I was pushed from piller to post as parents so busy with them. I comfort ate. When I was a teen school decided I was too fat to eat with my friends and chose my school diners. I was put on the fat table with fat kids n made to eat away from friends n get humiliated by bullies. I had to be told what I could and could not eat and was refused a pudding and made to eat fruit. This scarred me so much like you, I ate in secret anywhere I could get my kicks from. Then I was banned from eating lunch at school because I didn't lose enough.
This I'm positive started my comfort eating to this day ;(
Luckily my children are slim and I offer them a very healthy diet and encouragement to exercise.
When I left school I became a police cadet and got super fit n could run half a marathon with mountain boots on. So encouragement is crucial, then we want to succeed. This group s so important to those if us who need support and encouragement.

previous bander, now awaiting by pass or sleeve this year.

That's very sad to hear. You are right, you can a how've anything if you set realistic goals and have positive people around you! X

 

[ceecie74]

That was supposed to say ACHIEVE!!

 

[chrisa]

We all have our demons how good does it feel to be able to share and we all have similar childhoods really we just have to learn to DEAL WITH THINGS DIFFERENTLY NOW . Its hard and no one said it would be easy but it won't happen over night. Just by being able to chat without being face to face makes it so much easier to bring out the hurt and all the problems that are inside of us we have tried to bury deep. It really is greta top be able to bring those awful feelings out into the open with people who understand and want to understand xx

 

[ceecie74]

Definitely Chrisa!! Love this forum, you are all so supportive. I truly feel I can be completely honest and explore things I might not necessarily with family or friends. I'm sure this is an integral part to my journey and will benefit me over the next phase of my life xxx

 

[2nd timer]

Ceecie, I have my date !!!!

oooooo I got my operation date )))

Thursday 13th feb at Luton. Been told I need a by pass and am happy with that. However I have so much scarring from band in and out and tummy tuck and emergency op last march, they can't guarantee anything as there will be many lesions inside. He will do his best. If not can be sleeved and even worse just sewn back up again. He said I was a real challenge and would be in theatre at least five hours and may need to be opened up rather than key hole. It will be suck it and see. I will also be booked into the high dependency unit afterwards .
He is going to video me too through the operation due to the complexities for training purposes. Ill be famous! Ha!

So i have my arthroscopy tomorrow ( knee repair) and then 3 weeks later the big op. ill be a bionic woman looking forward to being on the losing side with you all whoopie!

previous bander, now awaiting by pass or sleeve this year.

 

[nicola1723]

Great news x

 

[ceecie74]

Ceecie, I have my date !!!!

oooooo I got my operation date )))

Thursday 13th feb at Luton. Been told I need a by pass and am happy with that. However I have so much scarring from band in and out and tummy tuck and emergency op last march, they can't guarantee anything as there will be many lesions inside. He will do his best. If not can be sleeved and even worse just sewn back up again. He said I was a real challenge and would be in theatre at least five hours and may need to be opened up rather than key hole. It will be suck it and see. I will also be booked into the high dependency unit afterwards .
He is going to video me too through the operation due to the complexities for training purposes. Ill be famous! Ha!

So i have my arthroscopy tomorrow ( knee repair) and then 3 weeks later the big op. ill be a bionic woman looking forward to being on the losing side with you all whoopie!

previous bander, now awaiting by pass or sleeve this year.

Fantastic news!! Time to start that diary so we can all follow your progress!! Don't forget to take some pics!!

Well done!! I look forward to seeing your transformation !!!! X