continued.. haha! Resumed from my moms, its like the Ritz! Central heating, internet.. fantastic food, and company
Thankyou for the lovely comments, nice to know someone gets bored enough to read the drivvel haha! only kidding
Nice to know I can be of some help, and your all in my thoughts and prayers.
Im glad to hear your building up, even getting your fighting robe on and off (all 3 of em!) to smash the next day into the middle of next week, and one step in a better direction for yourself and the family.
I feel bad that alot of this thread is about sadness and not pleasant to read, pretty much emotional rollercoaster/train wreck that gets read as and when. I know theres plenty of ups and downs and some of it is pretty dire. Its just how it happens, and looking back I think.. omg! but as they go on things get better and can see how far Ive come and it gives me determination to not go back anywhere near there.
This whole thing Monday is really getting me stressing now, Ive had a convo at work about it - what happens if they cant fix it or something serious is going on and they need to fix it? Will they admit you? will they do it there and then?? Answer I gave.. naa.. to which I had my department manager say.. "no keeping you back anymore is there??" to which I gave the most unconvincing Im ok smile.
Think people at work are now getting used to things, and have gotten round the "wow! went away in february back to work in July and 8 stone off !! WOW!! AMAZING! MIRACLE!! WLS IS THE BOMB!!" to .. its not like on fat surgeons.. or.. its not like weight loss ward.. its not been easy has it? so something has come of it to give a better understanding to the public in general with regards to people like you and I.
Tend to know when Im not in particularly feeling good day, and to leave me alone to battle through. IVe really felt it this week without being able to take anti-sickness tablets and lansaprazole.. had couple good days, but oddly enough my food consumption has gone down - 3 mini meals a day (3 spoons a time) but its been every day Ive eaten it so even though it seems its a step back, its actually what I consider to be progress because without all those anti sickness Im still gettign more in and thats got to be good!
Driving lessons.. never really been able to afford car lessons, and now Im not yamming £50 a week in food down my neck, figured its time to put the money to good use. So far its decorated my flat, gone in my savings, and now teach me to drive. I have 2 beautiful nieces, and 2 nephews who are my world. I live 5 miles away, and up until recently (broken down motorcycle) see them every day even if its only for 10 minutes.
On the weekend, we go out over the park for an hour or so, fly a kite, kick a football, play on the slide or just go for a walk and monster hunting or into town. Would be nice to be able to take them in the car somewhere more interesting or nicer.
It also means I can finally get out there and explore the big wide world a bit more too. With stuff goign on, I need a distraction or something to focus my time on. Tomorrow is my first lesson, looking forward to it! give me a taster of thigns, and something to focus on until next weeks lesson. Its something for me, and nothings going to stop me (unless we run out of fuel).
Test results.. mmm.. yeah! I can almost feel that drain rod going down me neck now .. eughhh! Stressing but trying to keep calm and collected, Ive also tried to eat some nice foods in case I wind up nil by mouth again.. I wont.. but still there at the back of the mind. I just have to remember.. these are proffessionals who in every instance know EXACTLY what they are doing.. as the mission statement of the PCT states.. they aim to make every patient..
Cared for.. Welcomed.. In Safe Hands.. I have absolutely nothing to worry about.. and moving swiftly on!
I have the luxury of spending tonight at my parents, with them and my terror of a niece (shes 5 going on 50 and never shuts up!) and have even decided to go on a spending spree tomorrow for work. On the quest for work trousers and shirts.. yay! :-/Just have to keep moving on with life and things and try not to dwell on the shoulda, woulda, couldas, what ifs. All it got me is angry, burning up with bitterness and hatred turning me into something that isnt me. Cant give up living until its convenient for the world to get to my way of thinking, it might never happen and Ive wasted enough time in previous years, times too valuable
Love to you and your family dearest Sicknote, and keep battling on. Got your Fighting robe, just gotta keep putting the mits on and knocking everything down in your way
We will soon be where we need to be, I have no doubt about it. We didnt get here overnight, and sadly its not gonna be over that soon either! Enjoy your weekend sweetie x