My Gastric Bypass Journey -Onwards and Upwards-Well this is a start

[mandy-1975]

Not sure if Ive posted on your thread before Mandy but have been following it for a while. Sounds like you are doing really well, and wanted to congratulate you on the size 18s.

Can I just ask you, are you still finding the weight is dropping now you are almost 8 month post op? and what size portions can you manage now?

Hi Thanks........

I seem to go threw stages of one minute I am at a stand still the next I lose, at the moment I am on a losing streak....... which is good..... but i have noticed when i don't lose the pounds I seem to lose the inches.......

When I was chatting to my friend last night, she had byapss same day and same consultant!!!! we were saying we both went threw a stage where I felt hungry all the time and I thought mentally I was eating big portions.... but i do think that was a lot of metal things going on... but for the past month I have found that my portions alot smaller, I am really starting to listen to my stomoch, for instance

Saturday - had a small piece of brown toast and one rasher of bacon, was the stuffed....... then at about 4 pm I had a ryvita with some soft cheese on it.... then at seven I had a small bowl of curry no rice and a poppadum.... have to say only had a bit of the curry....

Sunday - had the smae for breakfast as sunday, then for dinner had a pack of mini ryvitas... then at 5 had a small peice of roast pork, four batons carrots a tablespoon of garden peas and two small roast potatoes and lots of gravy!!!!!!!! and that was me stuffed for the day........

Hope that helps a little

 

[jinkles]

OMG

Well had a wonderful day Christmas day, althought we didnt wake up till 8.15 am how late!!!!!!!!!! went to see my friend then back home and bit of brunch!!!!

Was off to spend xmas dinner with my father and his partner and her daughter and partner... fist time in 21years!!!!!!! I was apprehensive and scared!!!!!!!!! as you can imagine...

Well arrived and felt rather awkward, we dished out presents.... (thats another time) then for the starter my dad had made homemade soup.... I don't like soup so asked to not have anything... on the table were all these extras - bread, onions(pickled) beetroot.... salad.... so much food!!!!! i decided to have a bit of beetroot... I love it!!!!

Then was the main, i saw the plates with the turkey on it and my dad had put loads and loads onit i asked him to take a bit off......

Then the brought in the plates - he had but 6 huge roast potatoes on mine i nearly died... then there was so much veg and stuffing it was awful....

I did my best and managed a little!!!! then he tried to feed me with trifle, I nearly died! then we sat chatting all was fine, but then he decided he wanted to pick an argument...

Started telling me He didn't agree with me having the op...... that i hadn't thought about it, i was selfish, I could of lost weight normally i lost it and told him he knew nothing of what i had suffered as he chose to walk out when it came out i was pregnant at 13... his answer I WAS AN ADULT!!!!!!! well as you can imagine it got worse.... he proceeded to tell me that whilst i was being abused I should of known better as i was an adult!!! thats all he kept screaming at me... my husband stood between him and me as my father was grabbing me, which then resulted in a confrontation between them!!!!!

We left I was upset and feel terrible, can't stuff my face with food as my brain so wants me too....... and that was it!!!

He sent me a text saying he had sent me an email and he loved me..... Yeah right....

The email says I am always welcome in his house and he loves me........ and then it says if my husband wants to finsih what he started he is welcome to go round and he will kill him.... lovely really.......

I am upset but I am proud of the fact that I was an adult and had my say!!!!!

As for my father - I couldn't care a less about him now, he will die a lonely death...... he has certanily shown me his true colours... Im no longer that little fat gilr who he could control and manipulate!!!!!!

Hi mandy, I can so relate to this. When I was growing up I was controlled, abused and manipulated by my dad, which, I suppose is the reason why I became so overweight, as I turned to food for comfort as that was the only thing that I could rely on in my life. I have had no contact with my dad for 11 yrs now I finally found the courage to stand up to him and left home when I was 17. He tried to contact me a few yrs later but I was avin none of it!!!! Unfortunately I continued to abuse myself with food, but now with having the gastric band and having some councelling, good friends and a supportive hubby I am slowly turning my life around. Well done on ur success so far, take care x x x

 

[mandy-1975]

Hi mandy, I can so relate to this. When I was growing up I was controlled, abused and manipulated by my dad, which, I suppose is the reason why I became so overweight, as I turned to food for comfort as that was the only thing that I could rely on in my life. I have had no contact with my dad for 11 yrs now I finally found the courage to stand up to him and left home when I was 17. He tried to contact me a few yrs later but I was avin none of it!!!! Unfortunately I continued to abuse myself with food, but now with having the gastric band and having some councelling, good friends and a supportive hubby I am slowly turning my life around. Well done on ur success so far, take care x x x

Hi Thank you..........

Have to say had a blip yesterday and a feel sorry for myself moment, and also turned everything in on myself, but i managed to deal with it........

For me its about wanting to be Loved and liked, and wanting a mum and dad to be proud of me, but i know i wont ever get that from my parents..... so i learn to deal with it....... it is hard though, like you say having a wondeful hubby and son helps to move forward

 

[shelbell]

Mandy you can only be loved as much as you love yourself, so work on you right now and your relationship with yourself. :hug99:

 

[mandy-1975]

They do say that don't they........... Have to say no hope for me then, casue that is the one thing I can't do!!!!!!! back to drawing board for me then....

Hope you are well.... your doing great, wanted to change my avatar but can't so have given up lol

 

[shelbell]

pffffft woman no such word as can't! Of course you can

 

[phatgirl]

Hi Mandy don't mean to but in here but I agree with Shel. You seem like a lovely person, a fantastic mother & you should feel like a million! Your weight has gone down and you have improved your life with your choice to have wls. How great is that and it totally YOU that did it. You did the hard work and now you have a better life for it. Just think of your surgery like the beginning of a new, long, healthy life. Think of your old past self who was hurt by your family as long gone. It was a cancer and you had it removed so now you can go on to be the new you!

Take care hun.

Nichole

 

[mandy-1975]

Thanks Guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sat here with tears to my eys, for some reason in the last hour, seem to off gone all low, and emotional........ Thanks for the support

 

[charliegirl]

Hi Thank you..........

Have to say had a blip yesterday and a feel sorry for myself moment, and also turned everything in on myself, but i managed to deal with it........

For me its about wanting to be Loved and liked, and wanting a mum and dad to be proud of me, but i know i wont ever get that from my parents..... so i learn to deal with it....... it is hard though, like you say having a wondeful hubby and son helps to move forward

Mandy we all want to be loved by our parents and for them to be proud of us. I was robbed of my dad when I was 13 and left with a mother who had always wanted a son after having two daughters already so I ended up in no mans land. Dont get me wrong she kept a roof over my head but I would of preferred to live in a tent with someone that loved me then suffer all the disapproving comments along the way. She has died now and I have come to terms with the fact I cannot even discuss it with her. So your not on your own their chick.....but I have learnt to let it go and live for now and I am happy at last...xx

 

[mandy-1975]

Mandy we all want to be loved by our parents and for them to be proud of us. I was robbed of my dad when I was 13 and left with a mother who had always wanted a son after having two daughters already so I ended up in no mans land. Dont get me wrong she kept a roof over my head but I would of preferred to live in a tent with someone that loved me then suffer all the disapproving comments along the way. She has died now and I have come to terms with the fact I cannot even discuss it with her. So your not on your own their chick.....but I have learnt to let it go and live for now and I am happy at last...xx


Thanks hunny...............it's the letting go I can't seem to do, I supose it is anger and frustration..... I am happy with my life and hubby... no i don't like or love myself....... but thats a whole different ball game......... but I think it is what you expect from parents to love you unconditionally and be proud of your achievements....... I was just unfortunate as my sister says that we had two parents that werent able to do this in any way..... they really werent meant to have children at all!!!!!

 

[mandy-1975]

Morning everyone,

Got a horrible feelign I am going to have time of the month very soon....... stomach is getting that dragging and ache feeling, I am so tired too........ still onwards and upwards........

Hope everyone is welll........have a fab day

 

[charliegirl]

Mandy we all want to be loved by our parents and for them to be proud of us. I was robbed of my dad when I was 13 and left with a mother who had always wanted a son after having two daughters already so I ended up in no mans land. Dont get me wrong she kept a roof over my head but I would of preferred to live in a tent with someone that loved me then suffer all the disapproving comments along the way. She has died now and I have come to terms with the fact I cannot even discuss it with her. So your not on your own their chick.....but I have learnt to let it go and live for now and I am happy at last...xx


Thanks hunny...............it's the letting go I can't seem to do, I supose it is anger and frustration..... I am happy with my life and hubby... no i don't like or love myself....... but thats a whole different ball game......... but I think it is what you expect from parents to love you unconditionally and be proud of your achievements....... I was just unfortunate as my sister says that we had two parents that werent able to do this in any way..... they really werent meant to have children at all!!!!!

Mand it took me till I was in my late 40's to value myself and to let go it will come in time chick...((hug))..xx

 

[mandy-1975]

Afternoon, Just to say Sorry not been on today, been feeling little low, I don't feel I look any different...... I know I must but just don't see it...........

Well have added new pics

will come on tomorrow night everyone

 

[phatgirl]

Hun, you need to look into getting some glasses if you think your weight loss does not show!! I just compared your latest photo with your starting photo & WOW! You only had a few inches of door on either side of you in your starting photo but now in front of the same door you only take up half of the door, you are sooooo much smaller. Maybe it would help you if you had the outfit from the first photo, you could hold it up and see that you have lost a whole person!!! You are much more shapely now and you look younger also!

Good work!

 

[mandy-1975]

Thanks, think it is a head thing.............. no matter how much i try i just see the same old fat person!!!!!!!!!

Thanks for comments though, think it helps when people see it.....

 

[mandy-1975]

Feeling rather tired and cold today, actually my whole body feels like I have been run over by a bus!!!

can't believe it is only 10 past 3...... the day has just gone slower and slower....... just want to put my pjamas on now, and fall alseep....... definately going to be an early night tonight,

Can't get into see my doctor till next week, as I have found a lump in my side and am getting alot of pain from it......... found it last week but didn't think anything of it, but have decided i better get it looked at......

Have to tell you all, went shopping yesterday in superdrug and got some fantastic bargins for xmas presents, came out with 3 big carrier bags full and only spent 12.35 was so chuffed then went to school and one of the mum's said boots had a 75% off sale so i went in there today and i got shed loads of stuff.... (not sure what i will do with half of it) the origanl total was around 120.00 ended up paying 27.00 so i am well happy, i never usually get bargins like that!!!!

 

[mandy-1975]

Morning Guys

Well what an event last night, I ended up in A&E for all the good it did me, now waiting for consultant to call me........

Well I said yesterday I felt like I had been run over by a bus, well last night i felt worse so thought, take some tablets and off to bed for an while, so I took two solphdol strong ones that I can only get on prescription.... well with in seconds of taking them i was in agony, felt like I couldn't breath, like my stomoch was swelling inside one point thought I was going to burst open, I couldn't touch my stomach.... so off we rushed to a&e with me in tears (wot a wuss) well have to say they werent much help, they think that the tablets have reacted with the pouch, gave me some horrible liquid to drink and monitored me for a while, they were trying to get hold of someone to find out what it could be.... one doctor said I would have to go back to consultant if it was the bypass as he is the one speacialised in this sort of thing..... have to say felt liek I was a leapor because I had, had the bypass........

After 4 hours I discharged myself as none of them were any help at all, and it was making me worse........ have just drunk water and milk all night........ hoping that might help!!!

Now waiting for Michael to call me back....... this morning it is still the same...... although I am tolarating it much better.........

Thanks Guys

 

[shelbell]

Mandy was it solpadol? Can't find anything on solphdol.

 

[shelbell]

If it is solpadol then I can't find any reason why that would react with your pouch. It's not an NSAID, which are the ones we have to avoid (aspirin, the profen family etc).

One possibility is that they have blocked your pouch. I had that happen with a bit of fish and it was very painful and a horrid sensation. Seems more likely to me as you said it came on almost straight away, where as a reaction in your pouch would take time to happen.

If it is/was a blockage, it should resolve itself fairly quickly with pills, as they will gradually dissolve. However, you may get residual pain and symptoms after the blockage has cleared, partly due to bruising/swelling, and partly psychological as you become afraid of eating anything in case it makes it worse etc, and that can cause nausea/enhanced sensations.

Hope your doc gets back to you soon, let us know what he says.

 

[tesmaralda]

hi chick sorry your not having a good time of it hope it passes quickly and please keep us informed of how you get on.