my hospital experience

[Tonibones10]

That's what I.love about this site though ruthie ...you gain all the knowledge of how to help yourself after the op and I've got a list of tips people have given written down which will help me millions to achive my goal which for now is 20 st .... thank you all for your words of wisdom so I can get everything I can from this huge helping hand being given to me! You so far have helped me more than I can imagine and I'm proud of each and everyone of you, loads of love! Xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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[Ruthiep]

That's what I.love about this site though ruthie ...you gain all the knowledge of how to help yourself after the op and I've got a list of tips people have given written down which will help me millions to achive my goal which for now is 20 st .... thank you all for your words of wisdom so I can get everything I can from this huge helping hand being given to me! You so far have helped me more than I can imagine and I'm proud of each and everyone of you, loads of love! Xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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Yes it's true, and it sounds like you are going about it the right way, gleaning all the information and meaning to use it! But others might be relying on the surgery too much and then they are going to be disappointed if they find they haven't magically changed their eating habits.

 

[Tonibones10]

Yeah its not my quick fix at all its my ONLY way out and I intend to make it a way out xxx

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[Ruthiep]

Sensible lass I am enjoying SO much being under 12stone and being able to buy normal clothes in normal shops and have salesgirls look for the smaller ranges when they look me up and down...it's my dream after years of "Oh I don't think we have anything in your size Modom.."

 

[Tonibones10]

Sensible lass I am enjoying SO much being under 12stone and being able to buy normal clothes in normal shops and have salesgirls look for the smaller ranges when they look me up and down...it's my dream after years of "Oh I don't think we have anything in your size Modom.."

I can't wait for that moment, I used to love buying new clothes now I dread it so the day I can enjoy it again I will be so so happy! Xxx

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[pandora]

What a good idea writing hint & tips down , I have mostly stored them in my head .
I thought leaving my husband & becoming a single mum was the hardest thing I would ever do , but I know know this is gonna be right up there with it , if not being harder .
With the support of all our friends here , Toni , we will do it hunni xx

 

[Tonibones10]

What a good idea writing hint & tips down , I have mostly stored them in my head .
I thought leaving my husband & becoming a single mum was the hardest thing I would ever do , but I know know this is gonna be right up there with it , if not being harder .
With the support of all our friends here , Toni , we will do it hunni xx

With the support of everyone here we will do it yeah hehe I'm so happy for everyone on there journey and can't wait to get on mine! xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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[VikiB]

I'm really sorry for this but I have nobody else to talk to. I am a pathetic mess today. I just can't stop crying...a million thoughts are racing through my head...top of the list for some reason is LOSER FAILURE I tried to quit smoking yesterday I made it through the day but as soon as I could to the shop this morning I got some smokes and I'm doing it again. I am finding all food discusting I can't look at it without feeling sick. I am feeling sorry for myself because of my husband. I miss my mom (she lives in the US and I don't have the money to go visit). I am sooooo so so so sad and it's driving me mad. I can't even do retail therapy because I don't want food and I'm still too big for normal shops and I already have stock in avon so don't need makeup...I'm tired and fed up.
I even told my daughter I didn't want to see her new clothes not because I'm jealous I'm not but because I just don't feel right today.
Anyhow I guess with as much moaning as I do on here you guys probably think exactly what I do...pathetic cry baby.
So sorry. I'll go away now

 

[NOMOREyoyo]

I'm really sorry for this but I have nobody else to talk to. I am a pathetic mess today. I just can't stop crying...a million thoughts are racing through my head...top of the list for some reason is LOSER FAILURE I tried to quit smoking yesterday I made it through the day but as soon as I could to the shop this morning I got some smokes and I'm doing it again. I am finding all food discusting I can't look at it without feeling sick. I am feeling sorry for myself because of my husband. I miss my mom (she lives in the US and I don't have the money to go visit). I am sooooo so so so sad and it's driving me mad. I can't even do retail therapy because I don't want food and I'm still too big for normal shops and I already have stock in avon so don't need makeup...I'm tired and fed up.
I even told my daughter I didn't want to see her new clothes not because I'm jealous I'm not but because I just don't feel right today.
Anyhow I guess with as much moaning as I do on here you guys probably think exactly what I do...pathetic cry baby.
So sorry. I'll go away now

Non food treat required!

Manicure
Pedicure
Facial

Any of the above - guaranteed to make you feel better instantly and totally no need to go near food!

You're just having a bad day hun, so run a nice bath fill it with bubbles and sulk if you feel like sulking, if you dont feel like talking or being enthusiastic about anything for the day then that really is ok, its not the end of the world. We all have bad emotional days chick!
If you dont feel like eating then dont, you may end up feeling worse and cold as well so try a little something, I would list what I am eating but its 2/10's of buggar all! LOL
(((( HUGS ))))

 

[pandora]

Viki , Viki , Viki , you are going through some really tough stuff at the moment & although I commend your effort to quit smoking , don't be so hard on yourself . Losing weight & splicing from hubby is plenty enough to deal with .
Take time for some tlc , like suggested a long wallow in a luxury bath or something .
Do not EVER think we get fed up of your moans , I have said before & will again , that's what friends are for , time will come when you support us xx

 

[Ruthiep]

Exactly. One hand washes the other as they say. We're here for you now, moan away, I'm sure when you're feeling stronger I'll be needing a moan! Listen to my song again; that should give you a lift!

If all food makes you feel ill, then it could be your downer is due to not eating enough. Try and find something nourishing to eat; some hot soup with cheese in it maybe? Once you have food inside you everything looks brighter. I agree about the clothes; no point in clothes shopping till you are a serious size or two smaller. HUGGS

 

[Tonibones10]

Oh sweetheart moan away! Everyone has days like this and your not just battling 1 thing ... never ever ever think we think bad of you honey because I am so inspired by you you are going through a million things at 1ce and if that moan is the worst you can do then bring it on Haha you are brilliant and amazing and so so lovely, have a nice hot bath and treat yourself to a facial or something try to brighten yourself up I love ya! Keep going chickadee! xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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[VikiB]

I am the person who is the hardest on me...always have been. I didn't think this op was going to be some miracle cure that made all the stupid stuff feel ok but I didn't think I would spiral back to crying as much as I do. There are days when I just don't want to get up and today was one of those. I did try to get a hot bubble bath but wouldn't you know it I forgot to put gas on this week (just too much in my head right) so while I'm running the water the gas ran out and I got icy bath water so had to run out and get some gas then I was too disgusted with myself to be bothered. So I just made everyone else dinner instead. I did window shop online but just found it depressing when I couldn't even find retail therapy boots. My husband was my everything and now I just feel like nothing with him. He spends hours texting and laughing and hurts so much knowing some other girl is making him smile now. I know I deserve better and maybe someday I'll have that but right now it hurts so much I can barely stand it sometimes. I Know I'm doing well with the weight lose but is that really because I'm doing well or is it mostly because everything looks so gross to me and the things I think look nice I just can't eat or really don't fancy at all ie: lemon cake ewww. I know I need to stop smoking but I just can't seem to do it...even with patches, gum, mints, inhalers, spray you name it and I've got it but I also have the smokes now too. If I have money I buy them...no matter how much I want to quit. And then I feel like an idiot because I have. I want to move away so bad but at the same time I don't...I'm scared of being alone. I never have been EVER. Christ I really sound pathetic today.
Sorry girls
thanks for all your support
love you lots

 

[Tray3004]

Aw Hun (((big hugs))) ur not pathetic at all ur going threw a really tuff time in ur life when the time is rite u will quit the fags untill then don't be so hard on urself xx hope u feel stronger soon Hun xxx

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[Newmelani]

Awwwww Miss Viki.... You're bound to feel down sometimes. It has to be hard being in the same house with him. don't be discouraged. You have people who love you and are here for you. Don't feel bad for moaning. That's what we're here for. Hang in there my dear friend! Love you

 

[Snow White]

You have so much going on. There is no way anyone could not feel down. Your doing well, you have had things happen that would have broken most people. Your strength is amazing! ((hugs))

 

[PurpleKylie22]

Hope your having a better day today Viki - sending you hugs I try to check this thread every day although I never know what to say. My boyfriend to some extent is the same as your ex (but he does everything on-line and not in the flesh so I try to justify it ) and I try but I'm just not as strong as you are, so I love to read your updates, even when you are having a crap day. It really helps

 

[pandora]

Kylie , hunni , one day something will snap & you'll have the strength to do something about your relationship . I had years of mental abuse , to me & the kids & one day I just thought " I can't do this any more " & entered the world as a single mum . Have strength xx

 

[PurpleKylie22]

Kylie , hunni , one day something will snap & you'll have the strength to do something about your relationship . I had years of mental abuse , to me & the kids & one day I just thought " I can't do this any more " & entered the world as a single mum . Have strength xx

I already did that once, with my ex-husband (the only two men I have ever had a relationship with) I was a single mum for three years after I kicked my ex out cus as well as a drunk, he was a violent drunk. My current BF isnt and in lots of ways is still perfect, until hes on the computer. My dad was violent as well and my current would nver ever hit me, so I guess I can cope with him looking / chatting up other women (I know theres more I just cant bring myself to type it).. I know its wrong to have a BF who does what he does, but hes still so much better than my dad and my ex-husband so I put up with it? I dont know... my head just isnt in a good place.

 

[VikiB]

Thanks girls as always your kind words give me strength to get up and get on with it I convince myself that you all need me and that makes me want to get on with things so I don't let any of you down...hope none of you mind me using you in such a fashion
I have been quite rough today (just feeling blah and really cold and tired) so did nothing but lay on the couch buried in duvets all day then got up and took my hot bubble bath...was soooo nice and now I feel much better.
Kylie my first husband was a violent man. He beat the crap out of me for 9 years before I left him and it worries me a bit that if I find another guy I will end up with another one like him. My current husbands only real faults are he's a cheating pig and racist (I hate both). I think I deserve better but in essence it's the whole reason I want to be alone and not date anyone. If I'm alone there will be nobody to hit me, steal from me (had one of those too), lie to me, cheat on me or any of the other horrible things. I just want someone to love me as much as I love them. I guess since I've spent 30 years trying to get that and still haven't that it's too much to ask for.
Don't worry honey there will come a day when you decide enough is enough and you are worth so much more...it is hard I know. Leaving my husband was scary and the hardest thing to do but it saved my life (I'm sure of that) and leaving this husband will be hard too but that will also save my life (mentally this time).
I'm glad you all think I'm so strong. Crazy as it sounds that gives me more strength. I am trying to get on with my life. I spent way too much time being devoured by sadness already. I started the new year with a new tool to get me healthier (and thinner) I did that for ME so it's time I let me be happy and fix the stuff that makes me unhappy.
Anyhow I do ramble on don't I...LOL
have a lovely evening
lots of love