224 as of this morning!! My last weigh in on my own scales will be Saturday. Then onto my parents' and then *gulp* no scales for 2 weeks. Hope I don't freak out! It will be a real test of my willpower. I've researched which yoghurt etc to buy from Walmart with the lowest carbs and highest protein. I'll also get some ham and stuff to keep in the fridge to nibble on. I'm not going to splurge on sweets and crisps and stuff obviously but I'm also not going to miss out. If we go to an ice cream shop I'll have frozen yoghurt, etc. It'll be very interesting. A real test.
I think since the op I've been uber determined with my food and hopefully have taught myself enough good habits to get by. I know I wouldn't have stuck by it without the bypass but I can't think why not. The bypass doesn't change willpower, I did stuff myself full of biscuits and chocolate one day over new year and no ill effects. I could easily slip into old ways. But I haven't and I think it's just because the small stomach is just a constant reminder to keep on this path.
I haven't found this a huge emotional journey, or painful in any way. I wasn't an emotional eater before this, I just wanted volume and now I realise I was eating all carbs which obviously wasn't helping.
Worrying slightly about the two days I'm at the office whilst I'm there. Usually I chug tea with skimmed milk all day, but a) tea is vile in America and b) they only have that disgusting half and half in the office (half cream half milk) so I'm a bit scuppered. I'll have to fill myself up at breakfast at the hotel, but it'll be all cinnamon buns and muffins, or breakfast potatoes and sausage. I'm really going to struggle. I'll have to bag myself some yoghurt and take it into the office or something. Also I'm going for dinner with some friends one night to my favourite Chinese place. Hopefully they'll do a steamed dish, but I reeeeally want my fave chicken and aubergine in garlic sauce, which I can't get here. I'll have to see what's available I guess.
I'm so grateful for this bypass! I have 4.5 stone to go to target of a healthy bmi. Hoping it will take about 6 months. My sister just booked her wedding for March next year and I can't wait to buy a beautiful dress and feel amazing.
I'm still getting comments at work which makes me feel awkward and angry. One person calls out across the open plan desks: "you keep shrinking! You'll disappear!" Or calls me a shadow. The cleaner stopped me at the lifts yesterday and 'congratulated' me. He doesn't know my name. They don't understand it makes me feel bad. It's like me saying: oh I love your new hair! It's such an improvement on your old haircut, it was hideous! No-one would say that to anyone, and yet all these people say how good I look now. I wasn't hideous before. If anything I look worse now because my hair has fallen out and I'm so wobbly (I now wear Spanx every single day). Someone's size is not a measure of that person and I'm not a different person now. Well perhaps I feel different in myself, happier, have nicer clothes, but people who have always ignored me and made me feel worthless have no right to consider me worthy of conversation now I'm smaller. I'll never be warm to those people and they'll never know what kind of person I am. And to the people who I did speak to before, some can only talk to me now about my weight loss. They never ask me about my weekend.
My work crush is visiting the UK office next week and I'm not there. I've never met him but we speak most days. He's so dreamy *swoon*. I'm so happy I'm not there. Only because I will officially fall in actual love with him, and he lives in another country. Or I will embarrass myself and giggle incessantly. But if I was in the office? I no longer feel I would have to hide. I could choose a nice outfit, put my hair in a donut for volume and feel attractive and confident. That is a massive change in comparison with when I met my previous work crush a few years ago. I felt I'd kind of misled him with being all chatty and sparkly for months and then he turned up from Australia and I was just a giggling blushing blob. He must have been disappointed. He did send me a box of Tim Tams afterwards though and phoned me on his last day before he left the company to say goodbye. *sigh* I love work crushes lol.
How did you find the liquorice Beep? Did you get salty or the plain round ones?