Tues 19th April
Well after learning my lesson with the ridiculously large hot chocolate , I have returned to normal . Whatever that is ..
A visit to mums today and had to go get her fish and chips for her lunch .. Is there a better smell that just sings England ? Apart from new mown grass and the smell of rain hitting warm pavements ..
They give out a huge amount of chips at my chippy even though I ask them just for a scoop for mum , they never listen .. I got it all laid out for mum on her tray/table , and she dived in like a hungry pup .. Didn't even come up for air until she was stuffed .
As I took what was remaining away to bin it , I poked through the chips looking for the crunchy bits . Now that , are habits that come up to the surface like that little red devil on the shoulder that whispers sweet nothing in your ear !
I'm divorcing that bloody devil ..
I simply wrapped it all up and binned it without a morsel passing my lips
My god I should be sainted , I feel so holy ..Hahahaha !
On another thread today I said how I was feeling .
A couple of months ago , I was sleepy , spotty , lazy , effortless , bloated , unhappy , snappy , bad tempered . Came home from work every night with a bag of 'goodies' . Didn't usually have a dinner as i was probably to lazy to make anything .. So just munched my way through maybe 2 bags of sweets or chocolates , you know the ones they put on offer for £1 a bag .. Maybe a big bag of popcorn , or crisps , or cheese and crackers ..
How I've not had a heart attack is beyond me ..
This last week has found me so different .. I feel younger in myself .. Now when I feel tired it's because I am needing sleep , and not just a bloated , massive sugar drop sleep ..
My head feels clear along with my insides . I'm more relaxed in myself than I have been for years ..
I realised also today , that I havnt taken my Citalopram ( panic attacks ) since I started the liver diet ! I just totally forgot to take it and I found the packet today while putting my undies away .. Maybe that's another reason I feel so clear headed ?
This evening in the shower I simply reached down to shave my legs and did it without any effort , I found I could stand in there longer without knees aching so quickly ..
My skin also feels different , don't know how to describe it . Softer and pinker ..
I don't get that fat person odour now either . I think that has a lot to do with a bad diet ?
Good god I ramble , apologies , but it is cathartic to keep a diary .
Late at night when sitting here , listening to his lordship softly snoring , my mind wanders off in all directions . And I can see out of the corner of my eye , my Alfie cats luminous eyes looking at me like alien eyes , all lit up and glowing !
I'm back to work tomorrow and I'm looking forward to it !
Sweet dreams all
Xxxxxxx