@countrywench you do make me laugh
I read your post, which is lovely, and then you follow it with a blunt direct question
Think it was the way I read it, but it made me laugh.
Thank you for your comments, I am looking forward to finding out who I am - I didn't have any confidence growing up, I was always overshadowed by and compared to my older super-achieving brother (or that is what it felt like). So I guess I muddled through and hid a lot - I was definitely a wallflower! That is not to say that I didn't achieve, but it was never quite enough - until I got a PhD and then he sulked that he didn't have one! Ha ha!
Don't get me wrong, I like my life and I am happy, I have been with C for 20 years in October! Blimey! And we have just had our 2nd wedding anniversary. C is very worried about the shopping trips that are coming up and how much it is going to cost her
, but she is also extremely supportive of this surgery and we are looking forward to being more active and outdoorsy (knee depending!).
I think, at the moment, I know that I am having the sugery tomorrow (OMG!!!!!) but I cannot reconcile in my head that those changes I have seen with you and everyone else post surgery are going to happen to me. I think I am stopping myself from imagining what that is going to be like - I know its going to happen, but I cant imagine how it is going to feel or be. I guess it is the fear of the unknown really.
Oh dear, philosophical the night before surgery!!!!!!
And in answer to your question Mindy, I am 45