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BandedHuns Mad Fat Diary

Ok so I lost a lb this week. Still little way to go but I genuinely think with stress not eating, wine I dint deserve to loose weight. I quite honest and brutal with myself in that respect, I know when I deserve it or not and not eating enough is never good, the only joy for me this week is FILL week!!!! Yaye!!!! Can't wait. I need more that 5.2l I think I have coz I've battled with feeling like I wAnt to eat more than I would, it's been a touch 5 week slog. Be intersting to go on the real scales rather than slimming world scales which I never trust they a rough guide for me as I started this journey at THG scales and it's those I base my loses on ....
Currently I've been on a massive ( I mean massive soend up) with not much to show but a new Louis Vuitton handbag, and yes he paid and yes I'm smiling, no coz he's got away with it but ... I've got the bag I've wanted all year!! Yaye!!!! Still doesn't make me feel great but it's lovely to have nice things ....

The flowers ... Another story I know I said they were badly wired and looked like morrissons bunch ... When he called and I asked about them I showed him he burst into tears. Literally. He was sobbing , he sent me the recipet and they were £52 were meant to come in red ribbons , box of chocolates and little diamonds on top ... Well attached ill show u what come (see pictures) he sobbed and said that it makes him look bad, anyway he sent an email to the flower company who have issued a full refund, another bunch to be delivered with cards and chocolates and the largest bunch and another voucher for 50% off another bunch when he wants too,... So I guess he tried and at least they didn't get away with it ... See the box the fed ex delivery guy just three them at me and they were delivered a day Kate apparently.... But seriously I did feel for him that that happened... And with the bag .... Cough £1200 later! He's still not forgiven!!! ..... Lol

I got to be strong and prove myself I'm worth more than this . You guys have been so right about my self esteem and where I place my worth. I have to be strong otherwise I'll just end up being walked over all my life :-(
 

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aww glad to hear from you hun! sounds liek emotionally your in a bit of a better place now! them flowers tbf poor guy theyre awful but he cant of helped that being as though he didnt deliver them or anything. sounds like hes trying at least tho, maybe in a funny way this will make him realise now what he stands to lose if he doesnt buck up his ideas. x x x x
 
Yes that's what I thought. He tried. But I have to keep strong and make sure he hasn't done something because he's still broken my trust ....

It's a tough one but retail therapy once again cheered me up. I think I just realised I don't have many friends and he has been so much off life so when he's gone --- it's literally me and my daugther then she goes to her dads- like this weekend and I'm alone again....

I've got myself a pizza express pollo con funghi pizza ... All excited thinking about it... Managed half as slice!!!! Seriously!!!!!!! Lol... I sometimes forget the bands there. Yes ladies .... Not even a slice finished and I'm stuffed!!!!!
 
I know how you feel I fill my side plate up with a hearty meal but very rarely finish it! maybe half a plate and im done. had a veg burger out n about today couldn't eat the bun ate the burger a small bit of lettuce and about 4 chips that was me done!
 
BandedHun said:
Yes that's what I thought. He tried. But I have to keep strong and make sure he hasn't done something because he's still broken my trust .... It's a tough one but retail therapy once again cheered me up. I think I just realised I don't have many friends and he has been so much off life so when he's gone --- it's literally me and my daugther then she goes to her dads- like this weekend and I'm alone again.... I've got myself a pizza express pollo con funghi pizza ... All excited thinking about it... Managed half as slice!!!! Seriously!!!!!!! Lol... I sometimes forget the bands there. Yes ladies .... Not even a slice finished and I'm stuffed!!!!!
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Ive eaten rubbish today and feel it in my breastbone. Blugh, never again. Im happy things appear to have sorted out btw x

16/8/14 210lb, op date 30/8/14 202lb, 4/9/14 195lb, 13/9/14 191lb, 19/9/14 189lb
 
tweetybaby said:
Ive eaten rubbish today and feel it in my breastbone. Blugh, never again. Im happy things appear to have sorted out btw x 16/8/14 210lb, op date 30/8/14 202lb, 4/9/14 195lb, 13/9/14 191lb, 19/9/14 189lb
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Tweety. Your numbers and dates are almost identical to mine ;-)

Let's kick ass!

I had a rubbish day yesterday....I'm going to make it a learning experience and try not to have another one for a long while xx
 
kurstywursty said:
Tweety. Your numbers and dates are almost identical to mine ;-) Let's kick ass! I had a rubbish day yesterday....I'm going to make it a learning experience and try not to have another one for a long while xx
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Lets do this! Lol

16/8/14 210lb, op date 30/8/14 202lb, 4/9/14 195lb, 13/9/14 191lb, 19/9/14 189lb
 
Yes... I'm up for hardcore eating well .... I've eaten junk all weekend. Too much wine all week too to help me sleep but I didn't have a glass yesterday. I did however have the scariest journey home from airport when at 2200 hours the car to my right all of a sudden swerved and hit the central doing about 90 the driver was flung out his seat into passenger seat and managed to correct the steering missed the van in lane 2 and I managed to get our car into the hard shoulder and avoid the lorry behind us ( think my driving skills I been taught with work helped - plus I was driving at 62mph so had better reaction time) but I burst into tears . It was so scary. But It did make me think that ANYTHING At ANYTIME can happen to us so quickly - it's made me think to stop moping coz I got my feelings hurt- life's too short. So yes ....
OH is home , £80 bottle of victor and Rolf flowerbomb and a toberlrone and more flowers at the airport. It's not perfect and it doesn't make it better but I can't help who I love he's just lost his opportunity to go again without us . Period.

So off today drs and cleaning

Here's to a day of healthy choices and more weight loss ?

Fill day Thursday !!!! :)
 
BandedHun said:
Yes... I'm up for hardcore eating well .... I've eaten junk all weekend. Too much wine all week too to help me sleep but I didn't have a glass yesterday. I did however have the scariest journey home from airport when at 2200 hours the car to my right all of a sudden swerved and hit the central doing about 90 the driver was flung out his seat into passenger seat and managed to correct the steering missed the van in lane 2 and I managed to get our car into the hard shoulder and avoid the lorry behind us ( think my driving skills I been taught with work helped - plus I was driving at 62mph so had better reaction time) but I burst into tears . It was so scary. But It did make me think that ANYTHING At ANYTIME can happen to us so quickly - it's made me think to stop moping coz I got my feelings hurt- life's too short. So yes ....
OH is home , £80 bottle of victor and Rolf flowerbomb and a toberlrone and more flowers at the airport. It's not perfect and it doesn't make it better but I can't help who I love he's just lost his opportunity to go again without us . Period.

So off today drs and cleaning

Here's to a day of healthy choices and more weight loss ?

Fill day Thursday !!!! :)
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Wow that answered my question.
My goodness glad you're ok.
OH seems to know he's got work to do.
Hope the Dr's goes well not long until fill day. Yay
 
This is my 4th one coming up after a defill last month.... My first fill was 4ml
And I really felt my first one hence 20 odd pounds loss... Then I've had a 1.5ml fill and a 0.5ml defill so I'm 5.25ml I think .... I need to look at my card but I'll see I need more in you kinda get used to it over time ..... I just don't wanna feel hungry like I do.... But it could genuinely be because I eat so very little that I am hungry .... ?!?! I'll find out when I see the Dietican too as I have a double appointment ... They can't believe how quick I've lost it all ;-)
 
Hi Guys, I'm new to the site but have been following your posts for a while. I have been looking into wls for a while but im feeling quite overwhelmed to be honest. My BMI is 35 and I am 16 stone (dont like typing that) :cry: Can I ask why you guys decided to go with the band? and what happens after 2 years?? :eek: Bandedhun, when i read your initial post i felt that you were describing me!!! I have a consultation tomorrow with Professor Ammori feeling nervous about the whole thing eeeeekkkkk what am i doing????? :eek:
 
Hi kat79...

Well done firstly for opening up and chatting to us. My choice for the band was I didn't want something drastic that changed my organs without being reversible god forbid I was one of the few who struggled. I had a limited recovery time and I used my life savings. I chose the band because I felt , as a overweight patient, serial YOYO dieter who eats well and healthy, not massive excessive portions but binges that meant weight gain was always "just around the corner" that the band was what I needed to secure that 1) I couldn't use food any longer to hurt / punish myself 2) couldn't eat excessive portions 3) reversible to a certain degree. Those were my main chooses. I also liked the idea that you could get it tightened and adjusted depending in needs/ circumstances... When I looked in to the longevity the more extreme WLS appeared that weight loss was faster with sleeves/by pass but the body adapts to that size and the pouch can stretch again ... The band was always able to be tightened / adjusted.

I feel privileged that I've lost what I wanted well within the year I thought it would take and the fact certainly at the start I remained eating what I wanted but in extremely small sizes , I felt like a "normal" human being rather than a food obsessed freak who is the only person who obsessed from moment I awoke to the time I went to bed. Driving home binging ... Tesco sandwiches ... Crisps,,. Then eating dinner .... Then running ... Then buying chocolate, completely obsessed that that day I needed to eat everything in sight because tomorrow might not come and I'd be missing out ... I'm sure some others out there did the sane but me I felt it was only me who did this. Who felt this. Who was completely controlled by it.

How my life is nearly 6 months since my WLS... Free. I'm not food obsessed. I love food and I think I wish but I just can't ... Rice... Bread... Steak .... I can eat it but it can hurt ( uncomfortable) so just don't ... I can eat chocolate but I don't finish a bar... I'm not controlled by it... Granted my head isn't quite there yet but I'm still a baby bander in the grand scheme of things ... Like my pizza the hotter night thinking if be able to enjoy a pizza express . Well half a slice... Stuffed. You get to the point you think ... Urgh I'm not wasting the money ... Enjoy the flavour and crack on ... Buying nice clothes is lovely. Another thing... Not having massive weight gains over night... So like losses and then if you put on coz you have eaten say more higher fatty foods because of whatever circumstances you put on 1-2lb not 5-10lb because you eat excessive portions of high fat.

It's TRUELY amazing, I'm very happy,

After two years I believe if you need adjustments you pay privately ..., but in the two year aftercare I believe you should be where u need to be to maintain and head / physical well being should be at the sane pace ... Ie used to eating normally , non emotional attachment etc...

Listen I'm blabbling on- good luck with your consultation - enjoy and ask lots of questions and anything else ask us all this is great site for help and guidance. Everyone has there own journey but ultimately we are all together with our struggles ;-) xxx
 
Hi bandedhun, thanks for replying you have made me feel a lot better!!! I am using our savings for this and starting to feel a little guilty and selfish for wanting to do this. I feel so low about my weight and totally inadequate at times. I use to be a really lively and bubbly person but now just find myself not even wanting to go out. I have always had to diet and excercise to the extreme and I'm exhausted with it all... I just want to wake up one day and not be totally obsessed with food. Tbh from what you say about how you felt you could actually be describing me. I am gonna go and writ a list of questions now before my consultation and thanks again i am feeling lots more positive about the whole thing :) xxxxx
 
definitely having a band changes the way u view food I still enjoy food but im not governed by it! that's for sure like banded at the moment I pretty much enjoy a small amount of whatever I fancy. ill crack on and lose the baby weight once baby is here and start having fills x x
 
Fill day tomorrow.
My weight has plateaued again for two weeks now at 11.3 - can't complain. BMI of 23 fat percentage of 24% so really I'm kinda right in the middle really. But I still so desperately would love to be 10st 7 I have another pair ( my tiniest ones ) of diesel jeans that I'd just love to get into I mean I can but they need loosing around my belly and I can't stand over hang on jeans ( muffin top) everything has to be smooth at the sides and considering I've stopped running and training and I can get them on I have to be pretty chuffed to bits. Me being me always striving for more.
So hoping the fill will sort my plateau out. Hoping to get that last 10lbs off !!! Yaye! Fingers xd.
It's crazy not having to think about food I mean we following slimming world ish at home just to support my daughter with her weight and get ideas about food , fresh meals etc and keep me on the straight and narrow but i don't really stick religiously to it. I have my chocolate my winey take away once a week ( or meal out) but as a rule of thumb it's worked at this hard stage - the last 10lbs or at SW the last 7lbs I have left ....

So I'll update tomorrow about appointment and hoot they put back the 0.25ml they refilled with and I get some loss this week.... We shall see Saturday ....
;-)
 
fingers crossed for you hun! SW is great ive done it a couple of times and it does work for me tho it was portions so i guess if i was to do it now i would be fine cos of my band! hows your daughter getting on with it? is she enjoying it? x
 
Yes she's lost a Lb a week then had last week at her dads so she's all bloated again uniform tight. This is the battle I have with her. But I figured if she's eating well mon-fri then it stops her putting in weight then that's the main thing for a growing girl . Not making it too much of an issue too .... So fragile kids little minds

How u doing?!?! Xx
 
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