WeightlossDreamer
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Good luck with it all Hun, and don't be scared realise your own value cos you are an amazing wonderful woman! X x
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BandedHuns Mad Fat Diary
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BandedHun
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So today food wise, went food shopping brought all the right stuff had prepped and got evening sorted for a mud week roast . Was so craving it by 7pm when I got in I are too fast... Slimming up and PB followed by a huge vomit, now I'm
Sore to which the PH who job got cancelled tonight had some beers and ended up with cookie dough ice cream and Oreo cadburys and plain cadburys bar all of which I've attempted to eat followed by incredible pain.... :-( so lying in bed, filled with guilt, in pain and ruined a good day for what?!? Because my OH was in self destruct mode and I felt I had to for him ... Grrrrr I annoy myself.
I'm preying they give me a fill weds. I'm certainly not going for another defill, I just need to be gentle tomorrow with myself as vomiting tonight made my band talk to me quiet abit and I can tell it's angry ... :-(
I know I want the fill to stop the days when I can just eat out of Borden and eat too much. I like feeling like I'm full , I like the feeling that foods just not that great, thinking it might be very physiological at the mo. But hey ho.
I read a couple if the baby banders who are couple months behind are struggling with hunger and the 20/20/20. I too struggle with the 20 rule massively and my PB , slime all comes when I get too hungry and eat too fast, when I do it right I do well, and that's where I want to be again rather than in pain and struggling and not seeing any weight loss. I'm still hoping for 2.5ln loss this week and the last 10lb off by the next fill/Dietician date,.... To achieve I must believe and if I believe I can work to succeed .... ;-)
Sore to which the PH who job got cancelled tonight had some beers and ended up with cookie dough ice cream and Oreo cadburys and plain cadburys bar all of which I've attempted to eat followed by incredible pain.... :-( so lying in bed, filled with guilt, in pain and ruined a good day for what?!? Because my OH was in self destruct mode and I felt I had to for him ... Grrrrr I annoy myself.
I'm preying they give me a fill weds. I'm certainly not going for another defill, I just need to be gentle tomorrow with myself as vomiting tonight made my band talk to me quiet abit and I can tell it's angry ... :-(
I know I want the fill to stop the days when I can just eat out of Borden and eat too much. I like feeling like I'm full , I like the feeling that foods just not that great, thinking it might be very physiological at the mo. But hey ho.
I read a couple if the baby banders who are couple months behind are struggling with hunger and the 20/20/20. I too struggle with the 20 rule massively and my PB , slime all comes when I get too hungry and eat too fast, when I do it right I do well, and that's where I want to be again rather than in pain and struggling and not seeing any weight loss. I'm still hoping for 2.5ln loss this week and the last 10lb off by the next fill/Dietician date,.... To achieve I must believe and if I believe I can work to succeed .... ;-)
sharon2014
Active Member
Hey banded, sorry your having a hard time! 
It's hard to stay on track when one little thing has an impact, but just remember how far you have come and as they say the last is always the hardest to get off! I have no doubt you will succeed even if it takes a little longer xx
It's hard to stay on track when one little thing has an impact, but just remember how far you have come and as they say the last is always the hardest to get off! I have no doubt you will succeed even if it takes a little longer xx
BandedHun
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Thanks Sharon, I'm trying to think to myself this could be worse but 12 years of stress and heartache and as things settle my past just always haunts me .... this just sets off a load of negative insecurities in me, it's hard, but I should be thankful I'm healthy, I'm healing and maybe new year will be better as this year has really felt tough. Real tough.
I want to keep perspective on things but so easier said when you feel worthless.
Thanks for the support. Hope you girlies are all achieving wonderful things xxx
I want to keep perspective on things but so easier said when you feel worthless.
Thanks for the support. Hope you girlies are all achieving wonderful things xxx
tweetybaby
Member
Things will pick up. You are due some good luck x
kurstywursty
Active Member
Ah banded xxx that worthless feeling....it's a real bummer. I always feel like that when I'm bad with the food. Before my band, and as it turns out after it too. But...this is a marathon, not a sprint...it's for life now. You have come so far girl. Go get those last few pounds..
BandedHun
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Fill day tomorrow,
Making a home made curry tonight and sautéed potatoes tonight for everyone. One of my fab dinners I'll post a picture of what I serve up and what I eat tonight. Still feel up and down but instead today I'm extremely lethargic! Urghhhh!!!
Has my nails done first thing this morning so that's good and they look lovely, my hand is playing up so badly - the ring finger seems to be getting tighter and tighter and harder to move ... I hate it. Makes my palm cramp up so badly.
Picture attached Of my nails ... Excuse the mess of my ring finger... Bless it.
Nothing else really to explain today, still 11.3... Still hoping the full will sort this long blinking stall out . :-( I just want to get motoring on and get into maintanance. I want to try toning my body up .... But sometimes I just don't have the energy or strength :-0
Making a home made curry tonight and sautéed potatoes tonight for everyone. One of my fab dinners I'll post a picture of what I serve up and what I eat tonight. Still feel up and down but instead today I'm extremely lethargic! Urghhhh!!!
Has my nails done first thing this morning so that's good and they look lovely, my hand is playing up so badly - the ring finger seems to be getting tighter and tighter and harder to move ... I hate it. Makes my palm cramp up so badly.
Picture attached Of my nails ... Excuse the mess of my ring finger... Bless it.
Nothing else really to explain today, still 11.3... Still hoping the full will sort this long blinking stall out . :-( I just want to get motoring on and get into maintanance. I want to try toning my body up .... But sometimes I just don't have the energy or strength :-0
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WeightlossDreamer
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www wowee your nails look fab! im excited to see your dinner x x
SingerMo
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Hope your band has cheered up and you enjoyed dinner.
Nails look great, nice way to pick yourself up.
sharon2014
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Yum!!! Your dinners always look amazing xx
tweetybaby
Member
Questions whats pb ing and are you nails shellac or acrylic overlay?
kurstywursty
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Love the nails banded. I always wanted to ask what Pbing is too lol
BandedHun
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PBing is productive burping,,, it's when u eat and nearly instantly the food burps back up into your mouth .... It's grosse beyond grossest ! Lol... Almost always makes me vomit coz the taste of my regurgitated food... Bluuurreeghh !!
My nails are OPI gel and the girls at my Beaty tabning place do them for £15 every three weeks for me. They do all the art and diamonds too ... So talented them girls love them....
Dinner was yum tonight! Liquids for two days tomorrow now... Fill time - god I need it! Feel like a battle the last 5 - 6 weeks mental tourtor and physical too! Lol
My nails are OPI gel and the girls at my Beaty tabning place do them for £15 every three weeks for me. They do all the art and diamonds too ... So talented them girls love them....
Dinner was yum tonight! Liquids for two days tomorrow now... Fill time - god I need it! Feel like a battle the last 5 - 6 weeks mental tourtor and physical too! Lol
BandedHun
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tweetybaby
Member
Ahh in enlightened! Lol. I PB when i eat too fast. Love the nails x
BandedHun
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I PB so much terrible. I'm making a VIW for the next 30 days ( of Oct ) to stick to the rules 100% eat protein before everything else and see if by mixing it up I can change my eating habits wholeheartedly.... For life or I'm just gonna fail the band long term.... And I don't want that. Plus I want to be at my long term goal weight and the skinniest ever :-( hummmmm ....
BandedHun
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Fill day today will head up town about lunchtime and will pop into the Louis Vuitton for another treat me thinks! ;-). Weight still not moved ... #angryface
I am so hoping that this fill does the trick but if I'm honest I need to stop picking in the evenings, I kinda woke this morning thinking "am I at my optimum weight" am I at the weight I should be? But surely I can get lighter? Hummmm. I have never just stayed at a weight for this long. But I am picking late in the evening, so I'll have a half pack of crisps or a biscuit. Maybe if I stop that it will kick start the losses again, or is it time I start running now and doing burn and tone classes? I just worry that it's not manageable for me ( like I go too far ) and then I put on weight because I can't maintain my over Excercising??? Vicious circle.
Just had some wafer thin ham, cucumber and light cheese triangles ... I love this for breakfast, it's light but so filling yummmm and stays down with a cuppa tea
Anyways, I'll update with today's news and let you all know what they say etc....
I am so hoping that this fill does the trick but if I'm honest I need to stop picking in the evenings, I kinda woke this morning thinking "am I at my optimum weight" am I at the weight I should be? But surely I can get lighter? Hummmm. I have never just stayed at a weight for this long. But I am picking late in the evening, so I'll have a half pack of crisps or a biscuit. Maybe if I stop that it will kick start the losses again, or is it time I start running now and doing burn and tone classes? I just worry that it's not manageable for me ( like I go too far ) and then I put on weight because I can't maintain my over Excercising??? Vicious circle.
Just had some wafer thin ham, cucumber and light cheese triangles ... I love this for breakfast, it's light but so filling
yummmm and stays down with a cuppa tea Anyways, I'll update with today's news and let you all know what they say etc....
sharon2014
Active Member
Aw good luck with your fill! the classes may help with the last 10lbs!!
Oh go treat yourself at LV xx I think im treating myself this week...not sure what though lol x
Oh go treat yourself at LV xx I think im treating myself this week...not sure what though lol x
