RACHEL: ive just gone through your diary - hope you dont mind...i felt like i was reading my own personal diary
i had a terrible experience the day of my operation at heartlands on 1st sept this year, ive had no support from dieticians since op as they all left and new ones havebeen trained...severe post op infection, and th feeling of being alone through this as been terrible...other than this site ive had no support at all.....ive been told today i can hav my 1st fill in 3 weeks time, but cant be seen again until march/april 2011 as they are just too busy...is this normal? after a fill what happens? am i just left to get on with it by myself still???
Candy that's about normal to have to wait so long. The only thing I can say is keep speaking to the dieticians, they still have the support of some of the older staff so keep hammering away, march april next year is a long time, to wait. (I am assuming you have had your initial post op appointment?) I had my appointment with Wendy (who has now gone on maternity) after my op and she was great, really motivational. We had a good chat, i was honest with her and said I hadn't been perfect, and you know what? she said that was fine...... cos lets face it who is perfect?! That was a revelation to me as I was expecting to be reprimanded. We arranged my first goal and she wanted to know where I wanted to be in a couple of years time. (I sooooo want to do a skydive for charity, but you have to be under a certain weight before they will consider you)
Your first fill is an experience, mostly because you've never done anything like it before. I went alone, and it wasn't great I have to say. The next fill I did take a friend with me for support as it does feel lonely doing it all alone (too independant for my own good sometimes)
They do leave you to get on with it pretty much, refer to your handbook as much as possible. If I'm being honest I think it is good to a degree as we have to learn through our own mistakes. what suits one may not suit another so all the advise in the world may not necessarily help, you need to work out what works best for you.
The hardest part is the lack of restriction initially. The reason we go through this whole process is to be able to cut our portion sizes yes? What's the point of all the surgery and painstaking dieting if we still want to eat a massive plate of food? All I can say is please stick with it, time will pass and things will begin to work.
It's taken us all years to achieve the bad habits we have...... why do we beat ourselves up when we don't rid ourselves of them in a couple of weeks?
My second appointment is over 7 months post op, so March/April isn't far off that either. Try and come along to the meeting tomorrow if you can as we all get on great and as it's at the hospital very often the staff are there to speak to with any concerns.
Also an open day letter plopped through my door the other day for this coming saturday. Free parking and talks on offer, also the chance to speak with the team. It's between 10-4 this saturday. it's in the usual diabetic centre.
Rache xxx