Hello Everyone,
So this week has been a good learning time. I was out for dinner on wednesday, thursday and friday (well friday was out for drinks and some sponge food!!!) So on wednesday it was at a friend's house who known me for 6 weeks and saw me fluctuate with my weight all the time. Anyway it was really really lovely and for the first time in for ever, i was the last one to finish my meal (and i still think i eat to quickly) tbh it was chicken breast so it does take time to eat now a days. Then on thursday it was my first xmas party / meal. It was our doggies club meal so we were 11 in total and you had the choice between 2 or 3 courses meals. Everyone apart from me and my OH had 3 courses meals. Both me and my OH had the two courses meal. but the deal with my OH has always been we share a started and share a dessert so it was normal for us, except that this time i did not touch the starter and had one mouthful of the dessert, tbh i was too busy sipping my rose wine!!! But i was so nervous about eating out with others that i did what flutterby does and have a glass of rose which helped me relax, so thank you for that piece of advice. So by the time main course arrived i was tipsy (on a small glass of wine what a cheap date i have become!!!
) So anyway by that point i was sitting next to a really good friend and he is a BIG LAD 6.2tall and can eat! So as soon as my plate arrived, i gave him 2/3 of my plate, then ate about 3 mounthfull and one potato then i was full so gave him the rest. It felt awsome because for once i was relaxed and content. I did not have this constant battle in my head going, you should not eat this or not that much, or on the opposite, really you are wasting that amount of food which you paid for, just force yourself and finish it!!! On thursday for the first time i did not care! I was happy and worry free. felt really good... Then on friday, it was me and my working team going for drinks straight after work... back on the rose
and then we went to a restaurant and it was 4 of us who shared food platers, continental, french and greek! it was perfect because the greek plater had pitta bread so i said can i have that and they could have the french stick (and i wasn't even upset of felt restricted because i could not have french bread which is my one time favortite) so even under the alcohol influence i still ate little and choose healthy food like instead of butter i had houmous! So really happy. Yesterday I was hungover and my OH did not help matter as he wanted dominos so we had Dominos but i did not beat myself up about it, i said to myself this is the week end apart from the wine i have been really good all week so i am just going to enjoy the week end and go back on the straight and narrow on Monday!
I also realise how much TOTM affect my weight! I don't get mood swing much or get very emotional (apart from this month I was a mess) the only way my OH knows normally it's coming it's because i get clumsy
i drop literally EVERYTHING! Also i can weight myself on saturday morning and again on monday morning and even if i have been naughty over the week end i will weight less. If i am tired and stress i will weight in heavier. I am one of those that will loose weight on holidays no matter what. So that's what i wanted to put on paper (or electronic device) that it is not just about the scales and so many little thing apart from food consumption and exercise could affect your weight. So lesson for the day: DON'T BEAT YOURSELF UP!!! just keep plugging along and we will reach our goals, all of them
well that's it for me, 6.5 weeks in and 7 kgs lighter, I love the fact that my band gave me control over my weight and my life! Everyone at work have said, gosh you have lots so much weight! So feels really good...