I will do a photo comparison when they've released the pics
In preparation for this, last night I cropped some old photos of theirs from when I was bigger and I didn't actually recognise myself. I must have been in denial all my life. It was like seeing a stranger. I remember the outfits I was wearing and thinking I looked quite nice. I guess I've always seen myself as smaller than I was - perhaps a 24? But at my heaviest I was only just squeezing into a 32. It's like I can see myself clearly now, at least I can see what everyone else used to see. I'm not quite there yet in my own head at a 16, in that when I see photos of myself I tend to be surprised at how I look. And when I try on clothes I feel they're never going to fit - and then they (sometimes) do. Weird innit. I'm happy at the size I am now. If I get smaller then fine, if I stay this size, also fine. I've not been a size 10 probably since I was 10 years old, so that's not a size I've ever seen myself being. I have 10 more lb to lose until I'm out of the 'obese' bmi category. It would be nice to just be 'overweight' officially, but I don't want my face to get wrinkly. My grandma showed my photo with big bird to her carer who thought I was 12 lol. My grandma corrected her and told her I was 22. I said actually I'm 33! And she couldn't believe it lol. So while I'm not old, I'm not exactly young and seeing as the skin under my clothes is a right mess I don't have much faith in the skin on my face! So perhaps a 10 is not for me. We'll see how it goes obviously but I've been considering allowing more calories to slow the weight loss a bit. My arms and legs are never going to look normal without surgery anyway so it's not like I'm aiming for a bikini or anything. I'll see over the summer how I feel and how much I lose.
