Thanks Chrisa, you are always so kind.
I know there is a link between low calorie intake and low mood, so I'm not really surprised by how I feel now, but it magnifies by fears. I went on my shopping trip and came back with zilch. I just cant find any clothes that feel like a comfortable fit, its actually getting me down.
Think there are a lot of factors going on really.
My mum's cat (she's only 9) has to be put down today, and I'm quite upset about it.
This is my last week off sick, its been a long time. I'm worried about getting back in the swing of things, as its a super active job, and I do have days still when I feel like poo. I've been up front with everyone at work about my op, and I'm not looking forward to the onslaught of questions and opinions about how I look. Don't get me wrong, they will be mostly nice. I just dont always deal with it well.
I suspect that if I had been on a normal 'diet', I'd be at the point where it would be beginning to fall apart and I'd be cheating and failing. I still expect it to follow the same pattern in a way.