Gastric band, My journey, the thruth, the whole thruth and nothing but the thruth

[miserable]

No Mrs Pill, you come first and you do what you have to do. Just POP in once in a while for hello and virtual cuddle ok xxx

As for people opinion, I won't be driven away because we aren't that many and any advice from people with the same surgery are the ones that count most so ll keep plugging along.

 

[JO28172]

Well put mis....and I agree mrs pill..do what you have to do but dont stay away for too long as mis is right...us banders are the minority and what's important is we stick together and help each other! Hope your break gives you what you need xx

 

[MrsPill]

I appreciate your support & I'll check in now & then to see what's happening. I've decided I'm going to see my Dietician this week as I'm feeling such a failure....I hope he will recommend a fill.
As to the negativity of the forum just now... I know that the banders need to support each other but its hard when people have such black & white opinions & are so intractable in their thinking. It makes me feel quite depressed! Oh to have such a large ego!! When you're struggling with temptation, the last thing you need is someone telling you where you're failing! I'm afraid my skin isn't that thick....and it wasn't even aimed at me either!! Haha. Ach well...keep the faith folks. Bands are good...they may not be fast but speed isn't everything... is it?

 

[Daisyhappy!]

Mrs pill i hope you get the fill you're hoping for. Just remember the band takes time and you WILL get there. It's sad when a place meant for support turns into a place you're afraid to be honest for fear of being attacked i do hope you return and have good restriction! Im worried about starting mushies next week as even on liquids i don't seen to have amazing restriction.x

 

[crazycatlady]

Keep up the good work everyone. You are all such an inspiration. When I feel down I usually look for you mis-you're a stronger support than u realise. We will get there. We have to! Xx

 

[miserable]

Thank you crazycatlady it means a lot. Right new day new week, let's kick some buts

 

[flutterby1966]

Mis - where has your photo disappeared to?

 

[miserable]

So just spoken to my mum whom getting her approval is Sooooo important decide to tell me now that she bloody doesn't care what size I am..... are you joking me????? I know I should be going it for myself but getting people s approval is sadly so important to me! I feel so unsettled at the moment. I am not getting the support I hoped from OH. He really really doesn't get it. Feels like no one does around me. Are all of you just struggling with food and portion size or is your mind set was mainly linked to your weight problem? But on Tuesday I wore a very nice outfit and for the first time, I felt really good so hopefully I ll have more of the good days than the bads!

 

[AmyN]

Miserable, I don't post on here alot but I do read your posts and your diary probably everyday. (I am not stalking you I promise!) Although i know you have your moments with confidence etc you helpful advice, positivity and general out look always puts a smile on my face!
Anyway to the point - yes your weight loss is slow and you feel down about it but I think that you should concentrate on your non-scale victories. The fact that you felt great in an outfit, your feeling better in yourself, the photo shoot you did for work. All amazing things that you have done for yourself, including having your band fitted. You have to remember that the band is a life long commitment and it took along time for you to put on the weight so it should take a far while to come off.
For me its all about my state of mind. I mentally prepared myself for six months before having my band fitted but by getting my mind prepared the portions and food control have come with abit of self control and planning. Keep planning, remember those non-scale victories and remain positive its hard but we'll all get their in the end. Amy x

 

[flutterby1966]

Mis, I totally echo what Amy has said xxx

 

[Daisyhappy!]

Great post Amy so true x

 

[miserable]

Morning All,

Amy, Flutterby and Daisy, this has touch me really really deeply. It also gave me the kick up the bum I need. You lot are such a wonderful bunch of people, you do not deserve to have me be less than bubbly and upbeat!!! So there it is I am back, sort to speak! So tuesday is pancakes day.....yum yum BUT the one thing I would like to do, I AM going to do is LENT!!! arhhh vile word it means you have to give up something...baring in mind my birthday is next week, lets be honest people I am not giving up cake or alcohol on that day right?! So what can I give up until easter? I already gave up sugary drinks and fizzy drinks (apart from a glass of champagne every now and again!) prior to surgery. so decisions decisions... what are you lot going to give up until Easter??? I am thinking giving up wheat. So all carbs apart from potatoes which hopefully will help my weight loss. I need to get my but in gear to kick start the weight loss again, got the dietitian appointment tomorrow and a fill on saturday. And you have no idea how much I am looking forward to it and I am sooo praying this will be the one to kick start somekind of restriction... I guess my frustration lately came from, I did loose 37 pounds since my heaviest back in August 11 so with dietiting, pre op diet and post op. BUT since 4 weeks post op restriction just vanished and I have not felt it since, hence why I am hoping this next fill will do the trick. So ever since, I am feeling like I am on a diet and all the demons and thoughts that go with it = SELF SABOTAGE !!!! So since August, its been a while to be good, in my books, and the last two weeks I am in a kind of given up mood, so I am grateful I did not put any weight back but I am ready to get my friend (the band) working so I have that as a support system. But let's be honest I am not making excuses, I can do more and should do more but for any pre opper ready my diary (poor mad people by the way because this is boooring and just a weird french person rambling on!) it is a big LEARNING CURVE!!! So I will keep on learning and fighting and I will look slim for this summer!!! bring it on people.
So tip to me on track is to achieve mini goals: So lets put them into place:

1) to be 185 by next friday just before my fill, so that means loosing two pounds this week.
2) be slimer than my boyfriend ASAP (aiming to be as close as possible to my birthday, bearing in mind it was valentines target I am a bit out!!! (looser!!!)
3) wear that dress, that I bought which did not fit around my giangantic buttox of mine back in January.
4) be 171 pounds by easter, this will be a mini win for me because this is the lowest I have ever been on a diet and that was 4 years ago and my starting weight was not as bad as this time round. So reaching that target and thinking and feeling like it wil never go back on and more will come off it will be such an awesome feeling.
5) not be sweating so much this summer but feeling and looking good with lots of dresses and skirts and shorts. The last time I wore shorts in summer was maybe when I was 12!!! So that will be a change.

That's it for me.
Happy sunday everyone!!!

 

[flutterby1966]

Happy Sunday Mis

 

[JO28172]

Omg yes...shorts in the summer..bet I was the same age so that has to be a must!!!!

 

[miserable]

Yeah let's start shopping... I also made a secret to myself at Xmas for next xmas and it is to wear an outfit like my 4 year niece wore... yes my 4 year old niece has more sense of fashion than me.... well I am thinking her mum is behind it! But she wore some very very smart looking shorts with big winter warm tights xxx

 

[AmyN]

Love! Love! Love! the new attitude. Keep it up. Good luck with the fill on Sat. I've got my first on a week Monday and can really feel I need it. Have a great (and positive) week x

 

[miserable]

Thank you Amy

 

[MrsPill]

Mis- you have so many goals it made me dizzy! I truly hope you achieve them. With my managerial head on...' don't give yourself unachievable targets' because they can be a bit ...er....overwhelming. I don't want to sound negative at all but I know what its like. Mind you, a mission statement isn't a bad thing either! ( OMG- I've definitely been a manager for too long ...haha)
Happy Sunday xx

 

[miserable]

I wish I could be a manager... but I am sadly a sales person so targets knows me!

 

[MrsPill]

Being in sales is hard work but you sound like you're really good at it. And being a manager just takes practice. Its a skill like any other.
So, if you're target-orientated, look at your first target and concentrate on that one only. Don't think about the big long list. And have a strategy about how you're going to lose that 2lbs this week. OMG- sorry if I sound patronising- I don't mean to. I'm just trying to help!